Saya dan Mama

Orang kata saya manja. Dulu saya tak faham. Kenapa saya dicop manja sedangkan saya mampu untuk hidup berdikari walau dicampak ke mana pun (hutan tak termasuk dalam list. Sekian.). Tapi sekarang saya sudah faham. Orang kata saya manja sebab saya terlalu rapat dan manja dengan Mama.

Dulu saya tak pernah sedar, telefon Mama setiap hari adalah pelik bagi mereka. Saya juga tak sedar, di saat2 akhir sebelum kahwin, saya masih mengheret Mama ke sana ke mari untuk buat keputusan. Saya sangat tidak sedar sehingga kakak Spa menegur saya tadi. Jadi sekarang, saya rasa sedih. Esok, tanggungjawab saya sudah lebih kepada suami. Bukan lagi Mama. Esok, keputusan di tangan suami. Bukan Mama. Dan mungkin esok dan hari seterusnya, satu persatu aktiviti saya dan Mama akan semakin berkurangan. Selepas 24 tahun, esok adalah segalanya. Kesedihan dan kegembiraan yang bercampur-aduk.

Ahh. Saya terasa poyo sekarang tapi saya memang sedih. Dan sekarang saya sudah tahu apa yang paling saya takutkan selama ini.

Mahu menangis puas2 sebelum majlis boleh?

Empat

Uhukk Uhukk Uhukkk..
Saya demam. Pijoi kata demam gelabah. Cet. Tapi nervous lah jugak kan. Tipulah kalau tak nervous langsung.

Lagi empat hari U ols. Tapi still masih dalam mood "Betul ke aku nak kahwin?" Dulu saya ingat bila nak kahwin ada satu perasaan yang luar biasa. Tapi setakat ni perasaan luar biasa tu tak ada lagi. Belum ada atau memang tak ada, saya kurang pasti. Mungkin perasaan luar biasa itu hanyalah satu khayalan semata-mata. Heh.

Esok pelamin dah start nak pasang. Baju reception pun nak try fitting esok. Nervous jugak ni since tak tengok lagi baju tu macamana. Khamis nak pergi Spa. Jumaat mahu pakai inai sudah dan nak siapkan gubahan hantaran. Oh enchek photographer juga sampai Jumaat untuk meninjau-ninjau tempat.

Ambil Fizz hari Jumaat and Alia & mom pun sampai Jumaat. Fiqa and Jihan juga. While the rest sampai hari Sabtu termasuk Enchek Pijoi. Yeay!!!! I cant wait. Wehhuuuuuu..

Korang.............Aku nak kahwin dah!!!!!!! ;D

Freak out!

I dont really understand why I can easily freak out for no reason.
Yesterday, in the middle of handling an issue, I received an invitation for a compulsory training which need a replacement if one cant attend.

While still thinking on the issue, I was busy IM-ing people, including my boss. Multi-tasking lah kononnya.

Me : Boss, I'm freaking out. My MAMLC bla bla bla bla and I have to go to the ALC training this coming Thurs and Fri. I havent teach friend yet for backup tasks.
Boss : Why you dont tell me earlier?
Me : I just got the email this morning. I'm stressed already!
Boss : Dont worry about the training I can send email to the managers. Just fwd me the invitation.

When I was about to fwd the invitation, then I just noticed that the training is actually on 14 and 15 DEC. Not in Nov. WTH. I was freaking out for no reason and malu with the boss juga.

Me : Cop boss. The training is on Dec lah, bukan Nov. Hihi. Please slap my face! Haha
Boss : Hahaha gilalah you!

I am tired already. So many things to settle before the break, so many wedding stuffs to think about, and I can easily cry at this point of time.
Tired!!!!! Cepatlah cuti, cepatlah kahwin!

Lovely!!

And now, I have time to blog already. At last! After 2 hectic, pre and actual closing weeks, now I would say, I'm free. Well not free as really free, but at least I have time to qada' all the blogs that I missed to read as well as photos to be stalked;p And tell you people, my wedding leave is going to start very2 soon which is exactly on Saturday the 14th till 8th of December. That is really a very long break kan? And I cant wait. Wohooo!! I just totally ignored everyone in the office who seemed so surprise when I declared my 27 days leave, including my boss. But, who cares rite! Ngee.

As for the wedding prep, Alhamdullillah, everything is on track. That's all I can say. Tak mahu membosankan kamu dengan the details. But for the invitation cards, I am really sorry for those who received it late or havent received yet. It's really my bad. Setem habis and I dont have much time to go to the post office. Huhu. But InsyaAllah, everyone will receive it before the wedding.

Ok next topic, what you will do to shut people up? That was the Fly.FM morning chat this morning. Got 1 person said, just slap her/his face. Perghh, kejam kan? Terasa aku! haha. And some just said that they pretend to listen to the ipod or mp3 and ignored the talkative friend. Kurang hajar. Nasib baik saya tak kena macam tu lagi. Tapi nak buat macamana kan, i was born to talk a lot. haha. Dont you understand? So please, dont slap me friends. Ngee.

I gotta go now. Have to finish some stuffs before leaving next week. I know I'm going to have a really great weekend this week so wish you to have a great one too;D



Oh and I have my own wedding ticker now! Itu pun nak excited. Haha.

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Last night, while Pijoi was driving on a highway and me was trying not to sleep, teman Pijoi driving,

Me: Awak, saya rindulah nak ada good housemates macam kat Penang, Christchurch,etc.
I dont have any since moved to KL.
Pijoi: Ala, kejap lagi awak ada saya. Lagi best.
Me: Ceh. Itu lain.
Pijoi: Dah lah tu, tak payah nak berangan. Awak dah nak kahwin. Sayalah housemate awak nanti.

Ya, my single life will be ended very soon. Only left a month to go. It is so weird that I feel scared every single day nowadays, but the thing is I dont know what am I scared about. *sigh* Is it normal? No?

A lil update for the day

Most of the time I will call strangers, sales girl/man, waiter/waitress as Abang or Kakak.It's because that most of the time, I feel that I'm still young at least 5 years younger. Haha. Sometimes, I almost forgot that I'm getting married soon means I'm not that young. But, most of the time also, people think I'm still a young student. Meaning, bukanlah saya syok sendiri kan? Ngee.

Another point that will keep bugging me most of the time is when strangers compliment me as lawa, cantik, or comel.Anyway, the story is like this. Yesterday, Pijoi colleague's told him, "Tunang kau lawa la". When Pijoi told me that, I straightly said, she must be pointed out the wrong person. But Pijoi said, "Isk, tak lah. Awak lawa je." Heh. So what keeps bugging me is the question of "patut ke aku perasan?" Haha. Sebabnya, when Pijoi's friends told him that he's cute or handsome, I will directly think that "Eleh, saja je nak ambil hati awak". Ok the point is bila an average girl like me gets a compliment, adalah sedikit jakun. Itu je. Ngeh ngeh.

Nowadays, I have no mood anymore to talk about wedding preparation. It's not that I'm not excited anymore. Just maybe I'm a lil bit tired with my work. But so far, everything is so good. Just a bit nervous with nikah and reception dress yang tak siap lagi. Redha sajalah apa nak jadi. Oh ya, in case later you're wondering who the hell is "Liana and Hafizul" inviting you to the wedding reception, it's actually the 'cantik' yours truly and her fiance with a bit glamourous nickname. Haha. Wait for the card ya. Will be delivered soon!;)

And I miss this baby Adam already..

ANU

Usual daily conversation:

Me: Awak 'anu' kan benda ni?
Pijoi: Ape 'anu2'? 'Anu' ape?
Me: Alaa..'anu' kan lah. Bukak kan botol ni.
Pijoi: Haa..bukak. Bukan 'anu'


Ayah: Kenal tak si sipolan tu?
Me: Siapa?
Ayah: Alaa, 'anu' nya si Mat tu?
Me: ooo dia.


Sounds dodgy kan? Ngeh ngeh. Tahu apa makna ANU? Haa meh sini orang Johor nak bagitau. ANU ni kiranya special words untuk orang Johor lah selain penggunaan 'ek ek'. Boleh ganti semua words yang ada. Memang universal habislah. Depends on the situation and sentence kot. Kalau orang Johor confirm faham. Kalau tak faham, murtadlah tu. Hehe.