Terakhir

Best kan kalau rasa sakit hati, tak puas hati boleh diluah face to face tanpa ada kesan sampingan yang berpanjangan. Boleh saya jerit "Lu pehal?! Jom tarik rambut!" Haha. Ni sakit hati kena simpan, tak puas hati kena cakap belakang. Bengkeklah weh. Tapi sejak dua menjak ni, memang banyak orang suka cari pasal. Tak pun saya yang suka cari pasal. Emo weh. Tak leh blah. Nak je cakap, "Menyampahlah kat kau. Get lost boleh?"


Lagi emo tengok orang sibuk shopping sakan lepas dapat bonus. Ni tak sempat nak shopping, dah habis bayar itu ini. Panjang pulak listnya. Betullah kata suami, "Kita ni awak, kais sebulan makan sebulan je." Haih. Bilalah agaknya nak rasa kais sebulan, dapat 10 bulan. Boleh jugak rembat apa-apa yang patut. Heh. Beranganlah kau!


Ahad lepas, sempat jugak buat muffin coklat berbentuk kek. Sebabnya saya tak ada acuan muffin atau bekas muffin. Tapi sedap kan awak kan? Haha. Betul punya sedap ok.



Jom tengok Betty. Dia nak tanggalkan braces. Excited. Mudah-mudahan aura optimis Betty melekat kat saya sikit. Sekian.

Kedua

"When you feel like everything seems to go against your way, just take 5 minutes to sit down and reflect on all the blessings you have in life, and the things that actually went your way. May then, the smiles will return, the sun will break out, the music will play, and you will finally be able to move forward the life that God intended for you with grace, strength, courage, and confidence. " (Almarhum Mas Afzal Masarudin, 2010)

My Lalings Esah shared that in FB. I just feel it's nice and a very good reminder for me. ;)

Hari yang tidak berapa baik harus dibaiki dengan membuat Bread Pudding Caramel. Pelik? Tak perlulah sangat walaupun dah 3 tahun kot tak pernah pegang oven. Dahsyat sungguh. Haha.

Nampak sedap? Bukan nampak je. Memang sedap menjilat jari.

Kalau teringin, buatlah sendiri. Guna resepi ni, sure jadi. Senang gilos. Selamat mencubalah ye. Nak makan puding jap. Hehe. Tata.

Pertama

Hari-hari yang bakal mendatang sampai minggu depan adalah hari yang membahagiakan. Kenapa? Sebab saya cuti dan boleh menggoyangkan kaki di rumah. Walaupun tak berapa nak menggoyangkan kaki sebab banyak kerja-kerja rumah yang menimbun, tapi at least tak perlulah saya mengskemakan diri mematuhi segala jadual harian. Ini adalah nikmat dunia. Ok.

Hari pertama cuti dimulakan dengan aktiviti menonton movie, Tron: Legacy. Cerita yang menarik dan best walaupun pada mulanya saya ada sedikit skeptikal dengan cerita itu. Siapa belum tengok, dipersilakanlah tengok. Confirm tak nyesal.

Sehabisnya movie, pergi lunch dulu sebelum mengambil anak pulang. Mula-mula rasa nak dating dua orang sepanjang hari. Tapi, niat dibatalkan sebab rasa tak best pulak. Kesian Aidan. Hehe. Jadi, ambil Aidan dan bawa Aidan jalan-jalan cuci mata di The Curve saja.

Ok. Tudung buruk gila senget benget. Boo.

Sekarang, Aidan dan pandai jalan-jalan cuci mata. He is one excited baby bila saja pergi jalan-jalan. Mulut bising terjerit-jerit, mata melilau sana-sini, dan sangat excited. Tak macam masa baby dulu. Kejap nak susu, kejap nak tidur. Hehe. Sebab itu, hidup akan kesunyian bila jalan berdua saja sekarang ni.

Orang yang sanggup cuti jugak sebab nak tengok wayang. Hehe.

Siri jalan-jalan hari pertama berakhir di JCO. Go try the Mochabella. I think it's nice.

See. Aidan pon teringin. Haha.

Dear Aidan

Hari ni Aidan buat Mama menangis. Bukan nangis sedih tapi nangis terharu. Terharu tengok anak Mama dah besar. Dah pandai macam-macam.

Tadi, waktu nak tidurkan Aidan, Mama baring dan peluk Aidan macam selalu. Mama tahu Aidan suka sangat bila Mama peluk Aidan. Tiba-tiba lepas Aidan habis menyusu, Aidan terus dongak pandang Mama. Mama suka sangat bila Aidan tengok Mama macam tu. Mama rasa Aidan comel, penyanyang, manja dan hensem. Aidan malu ke Mama puji Aidan? Tak apa, jangan malu. Kata Mama Medina, puji anak memang tugas emak.

Ok sambung balik. Lepas Aidan tengok Mama, Aidan terus cakap-cakap dengan Mama. Aidan cite pasal Aidan nak demam dan selsema harini, pasal Aidan sedih kena tinggal dengan Mama pagi tadi, pasal Aidan dah cuba nak guling-guling, tapi tak mampu. Aidan boleh mengiring je dulu. Walaupun Mama tak faham apa Aidan cakap, tapi Mama suka layan Aidan cakap.

Bila Aidan dah tidur, terus Mama terfikir, nanti Aidan dah besar, Aidan nak tak lagi baring dan peluk Mama sambil cerita tentang kawan Aidan, girlfriend Aidan, kerja Aidan? Sobs. Sobs.

Lagi dua hari, Aidan dah 4 bulan. Kejap je Mama rasa. Tapi Abah kata, kejap macam 4 bulan lah. Bila tengok Aidan ketawa, senyum-senyum, Mama penat gile tetiap hari pun Mama sanggup. Semua untuk Aidan.

Happy 4 months old, baby Mama.

XOXO,

Mama Aidan

T_T

Sedih. Sedih. Sedih dengan diri sendiri. Rasa nak menangis dan mengurung diri dalam bilik sepanjang hari like what I used to do when I was bad mood (and single). That's the best therapy. Tapi semenjak dah berpunya. Tak pernah berkesempatan buat macam tu. Lagi-lagi dah ada anak. Jangan harap. Takkan seharian suami tak boleh masuk bilik. Takkan anak menangis kelaparan buat-buat tak dengar. Tapi kalau dah bawa masuk anak dalam bilik, no more therapy. Kang anak pulak yang nangis, lagi haru-biru. Lagi murung, 10 hari tak abis.

Bulan ni sangat teruk. Buat kerja pun sampai tak betul. I dont know what went wrong. Am I too tired? Hurm. I think I am. Sakit mental dan fizikal. Tapi masih waras. Tak perlu lagilah nak jumpa Psychiatrist (betul ke eja. malas nak cek!)

Sometimes, I wish that I could have a day off for myself. Mahu pergi urut-urut and spa untuk menghilangkan stress dan kembalikan energy yang makin lama makin berkurangan. Sekarang tidur pun dah mimpi mengarut. Dahlah kena bangun malam, sumpah sangat restless bila bangun pagi.

Siapa kata, dah kawen, hidup tak jadi skema? Heh. Kan orang kata, never judge a book by it's cover. Semakin hari, hidup semakin skema adalah. Bangun pagi, berderet dah to-do lists dalam kepala. Tertinggal 1 list, memang kelam-kelibut jelah seharian. Contoh. Terlambat bangun 1 jam daripada jadual. Bangun pagi sure kelam kabut. Dengan nak sediakan susu untuk sehari, mandikan anak, kemas beg anak, kemas beg sendiri, kadang-kadang sampai terlupa bawak purse sendiri. T_T

Ewah Ewah! dah ada unsur complain nampak? Sebenarnya tak niat nak complain just nak mengadu saya sedih sebab bulan ni saya banyak buat salah besar semasa kerja. I feel like damn stupid and really not me. T_T Sekian.

Selamat Tahun Baru

Salam Maal Hijrah everyone.

Seperti biasa soalan bonus setiap kali awal tahun, "Apa azam baru tahun ni?"
Hurmmm..Emmmm..Mmmmmm..ZzzzzzZzz..

Kalau dulu masa budak-budak hingusan, senanglah nak jawab. Bila orang tanya "Apa azam baru?" "Saya nak belajar bersungguh-sungguh. Nak dapat 9A dalam PMR." Nak tahu tercapai ke tak, tengok je result PMR. Senang.

Tapi sekarang bila dah kerja. Tak ada pulak sebarang exam, macam susah sikit nak buat azam sebab tak tahu nak ukur macamana. Kalau boleh ukur guna bonus ke apa, senanglah jugak. Ni kang dah kerja separuh mati, sekali economy merudum, bisnes jatuh, bonus seciput je. Heh. Tapi nanti, mungkin 2-3 tahun lagi saya boleh buat 1 azam, "Tahun ni saya berazam nak buat anak bersungguh-sungguh." Senang jugak saya nak tahu tercapai ke tak. Haha.

Tak seperti tahun-tahun sebelum ni, tahun ni saya tak baca doa awal tahun. Tahun ni saya tolong aminkan saja bersama Aidan. Dah ada suami, adalah orang nak bacakan doa ;)

Apapun, saya masih berharap agar tahun baru yang mendatang ni, akan jadi lebih baik daripada yang sebelumnya. Dan dengan bertambahnya tahun, semoga diri semakin matang, baik, dan terbaik buat suami dan anak. Amin.

Short ramble

Dulu, (read: tahun 2009) I hated my company like I swear I would resign when I'm hitched. With the super heavy work loads, weird, oldies Japan system, and pressures from resignees, who wouldn't want to resign. The only reason that made me stay was I'm getting married so I need a long holidays. But today, I notice that those heavy work loads have gone, the weird, oldies Japan system seems not too bad, and the pressures from resignees are nothing. In fact, I love my company now. How could I hate it if I have flexible time to work, I could work from home once in a while during the month and some other benefits that I'm enjoying now. So, I just realised that, I could gain more with a lil bit of patience.

A month ago, I complained a lot when I was tired. So you can imagine that I was complaining most of the time. I felt like why in the world I have to do all the chores alone while babysit my baby and cant enjoy my favorite Monday night laugh or even Betty anymore. But at the end of the day, before I went to sleep, I kept on thinking why am I complaining a lot? Semua ibu penat. That's the fact. Kalau tak nak penat, jangan jadi ibu. But when time goes by, I just noticed that I am more happy when I dont complain. Mata memang sakit bila tengok baju bertimbun tak lipat apatah lagi nak gosok, habuk lantai yang minta disapu, tapi sekali sekala, tak salah untuk pejam mata. Afterall, I dont have to act like a super mom bila diri tu tak mampu. Yang penting, apa yang dibuat semua dengan hati yang ikhlas. That's the core lesson.

I dont know what am I rambling here. Yang saya tahu, saya update mahu tambah itu wang. Haha. Jangan lupa klik iklan belah kanan tu ya. Terima kasih daun keladi. ;)

Parenthood

I'm always inspired by mommy writings' talking about parenting. It's always fun to read their daily experiences in handling their kids or even just merely talking about the breastfeeding.

As a new mummy, parenting is not easy for me. I dont know this, I dont know that. Why my baby is still crying when he doesnt want milk anymore? I need guidances here and there. I read books, some baby-expert websites, and even blogs to master it. Nevertheless, most of the time, my instinct plays the big role here cause in the end, I know what's the best for my baby.

For example, some people think co-sleeping with baby is the best. But for me, I prefer to put my baby in his cot. In my defense, my bed is queen size only and I need an ample space for me to have a good night rest. In fact, me and hubby can have space together after a long tiring day juggling with works and a baby.

Breastfeed my baby is the most right thing that I do though I cant afford to exclusively breastfeed him during weekdays. He needs 16-18oz from 9am to 7pm a day. And I only manage to pump twice a day which equal 10-12oz for both pumping sessions. So per day, he will have 12oz of my EBM while the rest are formula. Tak mampu aa nak pump 3 kali sehari. Mahu kerja semua terbengkalai. Huhu. Nak pump time malam tak dapatlah. Sebelum tidur, Aidan memang bantai habis-habisan sampai bila saya nk pump, susu sangat sikit. 1oz pon tak sampai. Haih. But Alhamdulillah, now during weekends or the day that I'm not working, I manage to exclusively breastfeed him already. And yet, I'm still reading and trying on how to increase the milk supply.

When people say, "Tak bagi baby minum air ke?" or "Patut bagi baby makan umur 4 bulan" or "Membazir beli stroller/car seat cause baby sure nangis bila letak dalam tu", I just listen but that doesnt mean I agree. I breastfeed my baby and 70% of mommy's milk contains water so worry not, no dehydration issue here. My baby is just fine when we put him in the stroller or car seat since newborn and now he even enjoys it.

Am I rambling here? What I'm trying to say is just follow your heart. As long as it comes with an unconditional lots of love, whatever you decide and do will sure is the best for your baby.

Sayang saya tak?

My good friend back then in Uni uploaded this photo tribute to my lalings Fiz and Bils who got engaged last week. So memorable and obviously me and hubby were 'angau' at that time. So I commented that hubby looked so menggatal in that photo. Haha.

Last Sunday was my 1st Anniversary. Cepat kan dah setahun? Hehe So I did ask darling husband how much his love for me now? Makin banyak ke sama ke or makin kurang? He then did ask me back. Which one yang saya nak?! Heh. Nak jawapan selamatlah tu.

Knowing husband, he doesnt always tell me that he loves me or what but he always shows it. Tapi biasalah perempuan, bagi betis nak peha. So once in a while I must ask him "Sayang saya tak?" He will answer, "Sayang. Banyak sangat" quickly before I sempat to ask him the 2nd question "Banyak mana?" Cet. Tak ikhlas. Heh.

Anyway, Happy Belated 1st Anniversary darling husband. Tak ade hadiah sekarang tak pe. Tapi yang ke 30 jangan lupa 1 set diamond jeweleries ok!;p

Anak oh Anak

Semalam hari yang merunsingkan. Pagi-pagi Aidan sihat dan ceria. Menginjak tengahari dah mula merengek. Punyalah susah nak tidurkan. Kene dukung sana-sini sampai tak tahu berapa lama. Naik lenguh tangan pinggang. Nasib baiklah Aidan intan payung. Penat pun penatlah.

Tepat je jam 1 petang, tetiba Aidan melalak (bukan menyanyi. harap maklum) kuat gila sampai saya pun nak menangis. Ingatkan mengantuk, lalu cubalah naik kereta, sebab Aidan memang suka tidur dalam kereta. Lagipun, Fiz and Mek Su datang. So hajat hati nak lunch nasi ayam warisan yang lazat berserta air kelapa yang menyegarkan. Tapi malangnya, sepanjang perjalanan Aidan menangis tak henti-henti. Tak tahu dah nak buat apa. Dah sampai pun saya tak turun, suruh diorang tapau je lunch. Aidan masih menangis lagi dengan sangat nyaringnya macam menahan sakit. Nak kata kembung, kentut dan sendawa macam biasa. So saya cuma suspect dia sakit perut memulas sebab dah 5 hari tak bey. Akhirnya, Aidan hanya berhenti menangis masa on the way balik ke rumah sebab tertidur kepenatan menangis sakan. Kasihan anak. Dan bila episod petang nak bermula, saya teruslah bagi ubat. Berhenti menangis dan terus tidur.

Hidup kembali ceria dan seperti sediakala pagi ini. Aidan bersiap untuk 3 months vaccins and rotavirus. I told his paed on what had happened yesterday. Paed cakap sometimes, ada baby yang malas nk bey ok. Heh. Cenggitu rupanya. Tapi arini perut Aidan macam biasa. Tak ada apa-apa masalah. Haih laa budak-budak zaman sekarang. Nak bey pun malas ke? Haha. Hep Aidan ni, jangan malas-malas ok?!

Aidan is doing well. The development is normal as per 3 mths baby though he has yet to roll over. He can grab things, laughing and smilling, and making noise with his goo goo gaga. Very noisy I tell you. Banyak cakap anak aku ni. Nak jadi lawyer agaknya. Haha. He has doubled his birth weight which is sangatlah debab budak ni. He likes to watch Playhouse Disney also and sing along with Dibo. Mak dia yang sibuk nyanyi sebenarnya. Nak jadi penyanyi dulu tak lepas. Jadi penyanyi Aidan jela sudahnya. Hihi.

Tok Wan kata, "Ni Mat Senyum tak da gigi." hehe

I wonder why..

Sometimes I wish that I am an anonymous blogger who can write anything out of my mind without any restrictions or think whether my thoughts or words could hurt some people. But sometimes I do hope comments from the readers too and some other times, I wish that my thoughts could reach the right people whom I would like to dedicate indirectly.

On the other notes, now I really wish that I could have an Iphone cause I am falling in love with Instag.ram application. So, Aidan will have lots of nice and good photos then. Almost everyone that I know directly or indirectly use it and seriously I love love love sangat their photos.

At the same time, I wish I have lots of money, so that I can buy a nice, cozy condo in KD. Or perhaps, an extra money to go jalan-jalan overseas. I miss to have a long-hour flight. Afterall, I havent had any vacation since married/pregnant.

Some people said money couldnt buy happiness. But I think without money also people couldnt find happiness. The fact is money should be used wisely in order to have the happiness. Just that manusia tak pernah puas.

Same goes with love. When there are too much loves around us, we just take it for granted. But when it suddenly leaves us, barulah nak terkial-kial menyesal or whatever. Time ni, menangis air mata darah pun tak guna.

Sometimes I just wonder, why it is so hard to just be grateful for whatever that we have in our life?

T_T

Grandma and Atuk datang melawat sempena raya deepavali. Orang yang paling excited, of koslah mama Aidan. Haha. Makin hari makin lemak ok. Bangun dah lambat sikit, balik kerja makanan dah siap hidang, baju bukan saja dah siap jemur, siap lipat sekali ok. Heaven sungguh hidup. Haha.

Sekarang, mama Aidan dah mula kagum dengan ibu-ibu yang bekerja dan ada anak yang ramai tapi tetap maintain jaga rumah bersih-bersih dan teratur saja hidup anak-beranak. Memang tabik spring. Sebabnya sekarang, rasa nak pengsan bila dah sampai rumah. Jejak saja kaki kat rumah, mulalah nak kena buat itu ini. Nak duduk hadap TV layan Chinta, mimpi ok. Huh. Baru 2 minggu dah mula complaint? Sekeh kepala nak??

Nak dijadikan cerita, hari Isnin lepas, Aidan kembung perut. Hati gusar kat ofis tak yah
cerita. Closing period pon dah tak kira. Pukul 5.45ptg terus cabut. Babysitter mengadu Aidan
nangis tak henti2. Kesian my baby. Sorry Aidan. Sumpah mama tak sentuh lagi bubur kacang hijau ok. T_T

Then balik rumah, aktiviti mengurut perut Aidan dan melayan Aidan sepenuh hati diutamakan.
Perut mama Aidan memang dah tahap super lapar, tapi tak sanggup nak biar Aidan main sorang2 dalam keadaan tak berapa nak sihat. Pijoi macam biasa, balik lambat. Suruh Pijoi tapau food, dia malas nak singgah pulak. Nasib baik Aidan mahu tidur awal. Mungkin penat melalak dan tahan sakit di siang hari. Kasihan baby. Sobss. Jadinya, lepas Aidan tidur, barulah saya boleh mula operasi.

Hajat hati nak masak kari ayam. Tapi Pijoi nak ayam goreng. So ayam goreng it was. Sambil kemas dapur, sambil masak dengan tidak sabar. Perut dah melalak gila ni. Lepas siap kemas dapur, dengan hati berbunga nak makan ayam goreng dengan kicap, sekali tengok isi ayam tak masak. Gua apalagi beb, melalak superlah. Memang tak leh blah. Perut lapar, penat segala, bila nak makan, ayam tak masak pulak. Mana tak meraung. Haha.

Tapi itulah insiden yang nak kata sedih tak jugak, bongok tak jugak, kelakar pon tak. Undefined. Tapi memang sampai bila-bila akan ingatlah. Baru tahu, susah jugak jadi working mummy rupanya. And it is not fun anymore. T_T Esoknya terus nak makan KFC. Pijoi cakap boleh saya belajar goreng ayam. Heh. Not funny!

Nanti bila saya dah ada anak 4, tapi dapat maintain rumah bersih dan teratur segalanya, silalah tabik spring kat saya ok. Jangan lupa. Haha.

Kekasih Gelap

"Lynnette is my friend and you're not, Tom!" Gaby DHW season 5

Yesterday, while having dinner.

Hubby: What will you do if you see your friend's husband/bf cheating on her?

(note: We were talking about the obvious cheating like the friend's husband/bf sedang berpelukan, berpegangan tangan, etc with other girl)

Me: Of course lah I will let my friend know. Jangan harap nak terlepas.

Hubby: Even though you know that it will ruin their relationship?

Me: Hello. He's already ruin it apa. Daripada kawan saya terus-terusan kena tipu, WTH. Baik saya bagitahu.

Hubby: What if dua-dua kawan awak macam Fiza and Bili. That cheating guy and your girlfriend? (read: both are my good friends. But Fiza is my laling)

(note: sorry Fiz and Bils. Contoh je k. Hehe)

Me: Of courselah saya bagitahu Fiza. Tapi saya akan terus confront Bili dulu. No way Bili boleh tipu Fiza.

Hubby: Tapi kalau Fiza yang curang, awak bagitahu Bili tak?

Me: Tak. Haha. Tapi saya akan confront Fiza lah dan advise dia kembali ke jalan yang benar. Takkanlah nak bergosip berdua ngn Bili. Semacam je rasa. Haha.

Personally, I will always against orang ketiga dan kecurangan though my view on kekasih gelap was not that narrow macam dulu. And no matter how hard I try to like them, I just cant. Cause I dont really understand why they cant really respect the others. Afterall, I dont have to like all people in the world cause there are plenty that dont like me too. Karma people! Haha.

Moga-moga orang disekelilingku dan diriku dijauhkan daripada mereka dan cobaan ini. Amin.

Of Being A Working Mummy

I never thought that being a working mummy is tough. But, it's not that bad either. I'm loving it and yet it needs a lil bit of discipline and plenty of commitments.

It has been 2 days since I'm working and the first day went quite well, I can say. What I did was planning the daily activities during the night before.

1) Wake up at 6.30am, having bath and what not
2) Then kemas rumah and kitchen
3) Prepare baby's bag and milk for the whole day
4) Having 'ME' time by having a mug of Anmum Lacta and watching the 30mins comedy for 15 mins.
5) 7.30am, baby wakes up so time to play with him.
6) 7.45am, mandikan baby and siapkan baby
7) 8.00am, time for me to bersiap ke ofis.
8) 8.15am, off we go to babysitter's
9) 8.45am, finished breastfeed the baby and tidurkan dia. Then off me go to the office.

After about 2 and a half months of babymooning, I kind of miss my office work too. Thus, not really stress happened here. But juggling with the two-month-abondoned works and pumping the milk, it's quite challenging too. The office hours become too short for me. But hey, I like the nursing room that the company provides. It's not fancy or what just convinient enough for mommies like me. Thanks company for supporting breastfeeding. Cayalah! hehe

For the time being, I went off from the office at 6pm the most. Then rushing to the babysitter and meet Aidan. Only god knows how much I've been missing him. And tell you, he misses me much too until he had a very mild fever on the first day. Demam terkejut agaknya. Nasib baik balik rumah terus sihat. Huhu. Kasihan anak! The 2nd day went well though. No more mild fever and he was so behaved. Good Boy, sayang!

Right after I'm home, then goes all the lists.

1) Masak
2) Breastfeed & tidurkan Aidan
3) Kemas dapur
4) Buat laundry
5) Sterilise baby's bottles
6) Pump susu (if any)

Then only I can go to bed. But telling you the truth, I was totally flat at 10pm on the first day. Haha. Penat giler wa cakap sama lu. Nasib baik ada hubby yang understanding. Selalu tolong tidurkan Aidan and willing to massage my feet yesterday. Sakit kakilah dah lama tak jalan dari Dataran Car Park to the office. Huhu.

But today, dah midnight and I'm still up for Betty. Kenapa? As tomorrow, I am working from home. Wohooo. Ada chan nak bangun lambat;p

Drama Mama

Dulu masa kecil, selalu tak faham kenapa mama selalu marah saya bila saya buat salah. Silap haribulan, kadang-kadang biru lah kaki kene cubit. Saya selalu cakap kat mama, "Mama tak sayang Along." Tapi semakin besar dan dewasa, saya semakin faham dan tahu betapa sayangnya seorang ibu itu kepada anaknya.

Dulu, masa saya tengah mengandung, saya selalu cakap, "Jangan manjakan sangat anak. Kena biasakan tidur katil sendiri, kena latih itu dan ini, dan macam-macamlah lagi." Tapi sekarang, saya seperti lupa dengan kata-kata saya sendiri.

Minggu lepas, saya pulang ke rumah Damansara untuk hujung minggu. Oleh sebab, katil tidur saya bersaiz Queen saja, maka saya tidak berapa berani nak tidur bersama Aidan di atas katil. Mana tahu Aidan dihempap oleh Pijoi, nangis saya. Hehe. Jadi Aidan saya tidurkan di atas katil sendiri. Aidan nampak seronok tidur di atas katil sendiri sampai tak perlu didodoi macam selalu. Letak saja, and eventually dia akan tidur sendiri. Tapi yang peliknya, saya yang tak boleh tidur. Boleh terjaga dari pukul 2 pagi sampai pukul 5 pagi. Yang saya buat sepanjang 3 jam itu hanyalah tengok Aidan tidur. Rasa rindu sangat macam tak jumpa seminggu. Memang tak boleh duduk diam. Rasa nak ambil, peluk dia tapi saya kuatkan hati. Hari kedua, kurang sedikit perasaan tak tentu arah. Mungkin kepenatan seharian berjalan. Jadi, waktu subuh, lepas menyusukan Aidan, terus saya letak dia di katil kami. Hehe. Kesimpulannya, mana ada ibu yang tak sayang anaknya.

Itu perkara tidur. Belum lagi, risau Aidan digigit nyamuk, Aidan demam, Aidan cirit-birit, etc. Punyalah risau, tuhan je yang tahu. Heh.

Ahad ni, sudah mahu pulang ke KL. Ada sedikit campur-baur perasaan saya. Excited, nervous, sedih. All in one lah. Sedih nak pisahkan Aidan dengan Grandma and Tok Ayah dan pastinya saya mesti rindu nak tengok Tok Ayah dan Grandma main-main dengan Aidan. Nervous untuk jadi seorang ibu dan isteri tanpa bantuan orang lain. Excited nak jumpa kawan-kawan dan hidup hanya kami bertiga dalam satu rumah.

OK, cukup-cukup. Moga-moga saya mampu pikul tanggungjawab ini dengan baik.

7th Week

Time flies super fast. Sekarang dah 7 weeks since Aidan's birth day. During this time, I learnt a lot and still learning of being a new mummy. Yup, the top priority now is the baby. Almost everything that I do must think of the baby first.

Biasanya, bangun pagi, baby yang kejut. Hehe. Kalau nasib baik, pukul 8 pagi baru Aidan kejut. Kalau kurang baik pukul 6 lebih dah kena kejut. Then, kena breastfeed Aidan dulu. Dah kenyang, baru boleh main-main. At 8am baru mandikan Aidan. Lepas dah wangi, continue playing with him, then baru boleh tidurkan dia. After he is sleeping, barulah si ibu boleh mandi, sarapan, kemas rumah sikit, dan masak sepantas kilat. In between all this, sempat jugalah berfb-ing or blog hopping. Heh.

Kalau mahu keluar sekarang, tidak lagi boleh berlenggang kangkung, 5 minit dah siap. Anak mestilah didahulukan. Bermula dengan segala persiapan barang-barang anak (diapers, baju, etc) dan susu, di akhiri dengan menyiapkan anak handsome2. Dah siap segala kaitan dengan anak, barulah boleh menyiapkan diri yang mengambil masa hanya 5 minit. Oh tapi sekarang sudah tambah 10 minit. Mana boleh baby je handsome, Mummy pun nak cantik dan beautiful.

Makan pun sekarang kena fikir anak. Tak boleh makan food yang terlalu pedas, nanti anak cirit birit. Atau benda yang boleh buat anak kembung perut atau panas. Tapi bab-bab makan ni, susah sikit untuk mengawal nafsu. Jadi mahu ajar anak tidak terlalu manja dengan food. Haha.

What else in week 7?

Aidan can smile and laugh

Watching my son growing up in front of me is the greatest moment ever in my life. Thank you Allah for the happiness that you grant for me;)

Zombie at 4.30am

Anak is goo goo gaga in front of the TV. It is almost 5.30am dan dia dah bangun since 4.30am. Itulah dia akibat siang tido berlebihan. Pagi2 ajak main pulak. Heh. Jadinya, mama is layan internet, anak is bising2 tengok TV. So, today's lesson is tengok TV AXN ye. Wahaha. Esok kalau bangun lagi pukul 4.30pagi, kita belajar main FB pulak. Ngeh Ngeh.

I am happy yesterday. For the 1st time after about 3 weeks, saya berjaya breastfeed anak exclusively. Surprisingly, susu is banyak semula. Alhamdulillah. Berhasil segala usaha. Minum Anmum Lacta + soya + makan banyak. Huhu. Mintak-mintaklah berterusan. Amin.

Ooooh noes. Anak is making kueh. Got to go now!

Random on Tuesday

I love Tuesday night. I will always give up Buletin Utama for The Ugly Betty season 4. Siapa tak nak tengok the optimist, kind-hearted Betty kan? Kemudian sambung dengan drama siri Asmara. And can someone tell me who's this Melati dalam drama Asmara ni? Jangan paksa dan terlalu mendesak boleh? Bagilah Asmara a bit space. Rimas tahu tak!

Someone is watching TMTM tonight (without me). Teribbly sad. Wish that someone will accompany me watching my fav musical theather one day. *Fingers crossed*

On a happy note, I'm going to spend the weekend in KL. Home sweet home bebeh! though just for a weekend. Huhu. Cant wait to be home and of course to be with my boo! Rindu.

Oh have I told you guys that I can fit my jeans back? Woot Woot. Terubat sikit hati. Hehe. Thanks to breastfeeding (I guess) and I'm loving it. And I'm still learning and brushing up my knowledge and skills on breastfeed. Thank you susuibu.com for the knowledge and support. :) Mudah-mudahan I can continue breastfeed my baby (though not exclusively) till he turns two. InsyaAllah.

Tak Boleh Tidur.

Excited tunggu suami pulang sampai tak boleh nak tidur. Rasa macam dah lama tak jumpa. Padahal baru 5 hari. Rindu hokey. Sekarang baru faham kenapa Mama selalu nangis2 bila hantar ayah ke airport. Dulu gelakkan saja. Sekarang, hamik ko. Rasakanlah!! Orang single-mingle sure tak paham. Nantilah, tunggu kamu kahwin dulu ya. Huhu.

Tak sabar tunggu hari esok. Mahu pergi kenduri kahwin di Simpang Renggam. Sebenarnya, bukan tak sabar mahu tengok pengantin. Tapi tak sabar nak dress up kan Aidan comel2. Aidan kan ada baju baru. Kih Kih. Sindrom mak-mak memang camni ke? Ingat Aidan tu barbie doll ke? Heh.

Esok mesti ambil gambar. Harus bukan wajib. Kalau wajib, hangat2 taik ayam, berdosa namanya. Seronok tengok gambar baby orang, baby sendiri haprak. Malas ok. Malas. Lagipun muka Aidan dah terpahat di hati. Rasa gambar macam kurang perlu. Eceh. Alasan orang malas. Hehe. Aunties, Uncles, nanti Aidan balik KL tolong snapkan banyak gambar2 comel, okeh?

Enjoy-enjoy saja!

Esok dah hari ke 39. Cepat sungguh masa berlalu. Rasa macam baru sakit-sakit, terkedek-kedek berjalan ke labour room. Laju sungguh masa berjalan. Dan lagi 30 hari, dah mula masuk ofis. Benci benci benci. Lagi benci bila fikir kena tinggal bayi comel ni kat baby sitter. Pandai ke baby sitter tu nak tidurkan bayi comel? Rindu tak bayi comel kat mama? Nguuu. Tak mau fikir. Benci!

Perasan tak ada perubahan di sini? Oh. Saya memang dah selim. Cuma seluar jeans dan seluar-seluar yang sewaktu dengannya, langsung tak muat. Sedih ok. Jeling kat perut, lagi bertambah sedih. Tak cukup iman, boleh histeria. Heh. Tapi bukan perubahan yang itu saya maksudkan. Ehem ehem. Cantikkan blog saya sekarang? Bertambah ceria, bertambah kreatif. Nasib baik ada cik abang yang hebat dan macho. Kalau tak, sampai mati saya tengok burung hantu je. Huhu. Maseh ye yang. Nanti dah bosan, kite tukar yang lain pulak. ;p

Oklah. Sila menjamu mata ya. Enjoy!

Menjelang Hari Raya

Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2010. I had a blast one. Nothing can beat the happiness of this time raya as I wasnt only celebrate with my dearest man but also my darling chubby boy and of course my dear family. Alhamdullilah.

Happiness. Blessed. ;)

Nothing much on raya updates. Macam biasalah. Pergi beraya melawat sanak saudara, makan kuih, ketupat rendang and luckily I am on pantang yang-yang yuk for almost 1 month. So apalagi, semua food saya bantai. Cuma sambal kacang je rasa sikit, sebab takut gatal. Kurang nikmat okeh! Tapi, socks and bengkung still pakai. Sedikit selekeh di situ. Pasrah. Heh. So note to self: Next time no more pantang during raya. OK? ;p

Having my chubby boy during raya is fun though a bit kelam kelibut bila nak pergi beraya. Sekarang, kalau nak keluar, at least ambil masa 1 jam. Kemas beg Aidan pun dah lama. Macam kemas baju nak balik kampung. Huhu. Banyak betul barang nak dibawa. Dah siap bag, kena dress up kan baby Aidan dulu. Siapkan susu pulak. Dah siap semua yang berkaitan dengan baby, then only baru mama boleh bersiap. Heh. But afterall, I like it walaupun sedikit leceh and kelam kelibut. Biasalah, new mummy kan. Hehe.

My two darlings. Muaahhs!

Aidan 1st baju melayu, bought at Jusco. 1st time nampak, mummy terus excited. Tak sangka ada juga baju melayu for baby. 1st thought, baju ni sure besar giler for him cause it is for 4-8mths old baby. Tapi excited nak raya punya pasal, beli sajelah. But surprisingly, bila dah pakai, eh muatlah pulak though it is slightly big and panjang. Hehe. Ok, anak Mama dah besar rupanya. ;)

Aidan has travelled a lot too. From JB to Batu Pahat to Singapore. Yes people, Aidan dah ada passport. Hehe. Semangat tak? And lucky baby Aidan, Aidan siap sempat shopping at Orchad Rd, Tok Ayah and Grandma belanja. Heh. Mama is jeles ok. ;p Aidan is a rich baby with kisses, loves and of cos, the green packets in the house lah. Hehe.

Last but not least, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin. ;)

BoO HOo!!!

Yo. Wazzup y'all?

Lama juga tak berupdate blog ni. Nak cakap tak de masa, adalah juga. Tapi masa banyak membelek anak, membelek fb, membelek suami. Eh. Tak. Tak. Suami dah tak ada di sini. Meninggalkan isteri dan anak kesepian. Tsk. Tsk. Setiap kali suami nak balik KL, isteri mesti berjejehan air mata. Call her cengeng or gembeng. Tak kesah. Mesti nangis juga. Bila isteri dah nangis, anak sure ikut nangis. Tapi anak nangis nak susu bukan sedih ditinggalkan bapa.

Boo Mummy Cengeng. Boo Hoo!!

Harini, rindu terubat sikit bila daddy dedicate lagu Maher Zain ni kat Mummy. Sampai tertidur Aidan dengar. Merdu sungguh. Haha. Mummy lagi sikit nak tetidur jugak. Tapi liriknya best. Terbuai2 jiwa perasaan Mummy. Thanks Daddy. I love you too! hehe

For The Rest Of My Life ~Maher Zain

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along

And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I...I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

I know that deep in my heart..

Apa cerita pantang? Tak best wal terseksa. Like seriously. Padahal, Mummy is berpantang yang yang yok! haha. Sekarang no more ikan haruan plis. Rasa nak muntah dah tiap kali pandang ikan haruan. I hate yuh! Dah makan pati ikan haruan, tapi Aidan doesnt like it. Mummy makan terus Aidan cirit birit and sakit perut. Then Aidan buli Mummy terus. Tsk. Tsk. So Mummy dah stop makan and Aidan has no reason to bully Mummy again. Hehe.

Tapi walaupun Mummy berpantang yang yang yuk, jangan sekali2 melawan cakap orang tua2. Stoking kena pakai 24/7, benda2 sejuk (ubi kayu, tembikai, pulut, etc) janganlah sekali2 cuba untuk makan. Silap sikit, perut boleh kembung atau bentan. Mummy dah try. Serik wa cakap sama lu. Huhu. Tapi jalan2 di shopping mall is ok. Eksesais namanya. Aidan is loving it too. ;D

Oklah. Mummy wants to have her lunch and buat begedil for today's menu. Nak masak soto bebeh. Yummeh!

Hari-hari biasa

Sabtu. 21hb Ogos 2010. Hari ke tujuh kelahiran. Maka..

Aidan bam bam dah botaks! hehe. Aidan suka benar dibotakkan. Sampai tersenyum2. Terasa comellah tu. ;p

Harini baru hari ke 9 saya berpantang. Terseksa sungguhlah. Lebih2 lagi sekarang ni bulan puasa. Haih. Makanan lazat2 punyalah banyak. Tapi saya hanya mampu tengok. Tiap2 hari kena hadap ikan haruan. Sampai nak makan nasi pon dah naik malas. Haha. Dugaan ramadhan sungguhlah. Seksaan berpantang lebih teruk daripada bersalin. Siapa punya idealah pantang2 bagai ni. Sabar jelah.

On the other note, hubby dah balik KL and I really miss my man. I miss my home and I miss OU also. Haha.

Oklah, dah tiba waktu untuk permaisuri beradu sementara Aidan bam bam tengah syok di alam mimpi. Sebelum tu, some photos just for dearest aunties yang tak sabar nak jumpe Aidan bam bam. ;D

The Birth Story : Aidan Damian

People around us always told that giving birth is the scariest experience a woman would have. Towards the end of the pregnancy, I was always nervous and scared too. But then, after experiencing it first-handedly, though it is not as smooth as I thought, giving birth is not that scary. Well, the pain tu, memanglah sakit yang hanya tuhan saja yang tahu tapi it is still managable. Seriously! Let me tell you my 1st experience of giving birth though it may bore you. Haha.

I started to feel the mild contractions when all of us bukak puase at 7.30pm on Saturday. Since it was just a mild contractions and I always got the false alarm, I ignored the pain. Then, around 8pm, the contractions were a bit frequent, continued once every 10 mins. By then I already knew that the time has come. At 10.30pm, we went to the hospital and I was admitted. Contractions still there tapi menurut nurse, jalan masih belum buka. So, I hang in there between the false alarm and the true contractions. Saya mahu saja pulang ke rumah, tapi nurse tak bagi. Huhu. Hubby said, "Kalo false alarm awak, macamane? Memalukan. Haha" Ok. Saya pasrah.

3.30am, Sunday: Saya terjaga and the contractions started again. Tapi kalini lebih sakit berbanding malam tadi. Masa nak ke toilet, I saw blood stains already. So, it was confirmed not a false alarm. I cudnt sleep since then. I walked around the labour room to ease the pain. Menurut nurse, the contractions dah masuk 2nd stage dan sebab tu dah semakin sakit. Tapi, saya masih boleh bertahan. I didnt take any pain killer at that time and still can bergambar2 bersama hubby dan bergelak ketawa dan bertxting with all my gfs.

10.30am: Hubby wasnt at the labour room as he went to the room that I have booked untuk mandi and lepak with his brother for a while. And surprisingly, my gynae went in to check my condition. He wasnt happy with the baby position at that time. The contractions were at 2-3mins but the baby's head still wasn't engaged well. Jalan pun baru buka 3 cm. Biasanya, untuk contractions 2-3mins, jalan dah buka at least by 6cm. He was worried that the baby is too big that I couldnt manage to push him out normally. So the gynae cuba untuk pecahkan air ketuban. Dalam keadaan mamai and hubby wasnt there, the gynae did pecahkan air ketuban. Sangat sakit sampai saya menangis. Tuhan saja yang tahu. Then the gynae told me, in 4 hours, kalau jalan tak buka jugak, I need to go for c-sect.

Right after the gynae went out, I quickly called hubby. I was crying like a baby to ease my pain. Dan selepas air ketuban pecah, sakit contractions is about selang seminit dan hanya tuhan saja yang tahu betapa sakitnya. I was shivering untuk menahan sakit every time I felt the contractions. But then, I didnt ask for any drugs to ease the pain sampai nurse yang jaga saya kasihan dan suruh saya sedut gas. At first, saya menolak coz saya baca that laughing gas tak adalah berkesan sangat. Tapi since the nurse dh 3-4 kali pujuk saya suruh sedut, saya cubalah jugak 2-3 kali. Dan memang betul pun. Tak adalah berkesan. Makin pening adalah. So saya stop. Cuba bertahan sampai doctor datang at 2.30pm. Luckily, I have a very supportive hubby that always be my side that time. Sampai ngantuk2 dia tunggu kat tepi katil coz everytime saya rasa sakit saya akan genggam tangan dia kuat2 to ease the pain. And it works bebeh!

2.30pm: The gynae came in to check my condition again. Surprisingly, jalan baru buka 4 cm tapi saya dah rasa sangat lemah and shivering everytime saya rasa the contractions pain. The gynae advise to go for C-sect but he still gave me the option for normal delivery if I could wait for 5-6 hours lagi. MasyaAllah. I cried. I told hubby that I wont have the energy anymore if I wait for another 5-6 hours. Itu pun nasib, kalau jalan dah buka 10cm. Kalau tak, I have to wait again. So after several discussions, we agreed for the C-sect.

3.00pm: I was the in the OT. There are lots of nurses and doctors in there. I think about 10 if not mistaken. And I was given several drugs and I believed one of it is of course Epidural sebab nak bius half of the body saja. Everything was fast in the OT macam dalam citer ER pulak rasanya. Semua kelam kabut. I was relieved from the pain once I was given the Epidural. Then, I heard my gynae's voice. So hati sudah sangat berdebar memikirkan, bilalah die nak potong perut saya. And saya juga terbayang kalau2 the Epidural is not effective enough. But then, in 10 mins, the gynae told me, baby dah keluar and I heard his voice, crying continously. During that, the gynae siap terkejut sebab the baby is so big, about 8 pounds dia kata. Dan memang betul, after the weight scaling, the baby weigh is 3.83kg.

I was crying soundlessly after hearing his voice. Seriously, I felt so relieved. My baby is healthy and chubby. Saya sempat cium dia, before he went out from the OT. The gynae also told me, luckily I go for C-sect, sebab if I tried untuk normal delivery pun tak guna since the baby takkan boleh muat nak keluar. And he scared, shoulder bone baby boleh patah kalau tak muat. Fuhh. I was relieved then sampai saya terus tertidur time doctor sibuk jahit menjahit perut balik. Hihi. Punyalah penat sampai tidur tak sedar yang everything dah siap.

So, that was the end of the birth story. Sakit lepas kene bedah, macam biasalah. I cant bangun or even bersandar for almost a day. Nak mengiring tak boleh. So sangatlah berusaha time the 1st breastfeeding session. Hehe. And that's another story. ;)

Date of Birth: 15 August 2010

Time: 3.34pm

Gestational: 39 weeks and 3 days

Welcome to the world, Aidan Damian and to hubby, thank you so much for everything that you have given and done for me;) Mummy loves you both so much! Muahhhs..

Balik Kampung..Hati Riang

Tahu tak itu apa? Bukan seekor alien pet atau labah2 atau obor2. Kalau nak tahu, itulah air kacip fatimah yang original punya. Orang kata, air kacip fatimah ni macam air selusuh untuk menyenangkan proses bersalin. Jadi saya cubalah. Pakcik saya beli masa die pergi umrah. Tapi betapa terseksanya minum air ini. Bau dia. Perrrghhh. Masyaallah. Tuhan je yang tahu. Huhu. Pijoi pon tak sanggup nak bau. Tapi selalu paksa saya minum. Malam tadi je saya ngelat tak minum. Haha. Keberkesanan? Nanti saya cekidout.

Harini nak balik kampung! Wohooo. Dua bulan dah saya tak balik JB. Eksaited gile!

Tengok banyakkan barang baby boy? Macam nak pindah rumah. Ni pon dh hantar separuh ke JB. Tak sangka boleh jadi sebanyak ni. Huhu.

Cepatnya masa berlalu. Baby boy dah 39 weeks and 1 day. Macam tak percaya saya dah bawa budak kecik ni ke mana2 for 9 months. Macam tak percaya yang lepas ni, saya ada budak kecik untuk digomol setiap hari. Tak percayalah. Haha. Rasa macam mahu melahirkan seorang adik bukan anak. Tapi hati sangatlah tidak sabar mahu melihat sendiri budak kecik yang dah diangkut 9 bulan dengan jayanya. Doa2kanlah budak kecik mahu keluar weekend ni jadi abah baby boy boleh teman saya. Sedih pulak rasanya bila nak hidup berjauhan dengan suami. Perasaan macam nak kena pergi outstation berbulan2. (T_T)

Apapun, doakan semuanya baik dan selamat ya rakan2 yang baik hati. Selamat berpuasa ;)

Size Does Matter

One happy mommy after got her Chicken Mandy at Al-Rawsha. Love you sayang:)

And

The lil boy inside me at 38 weeks. Big, round, and cute. Hehe
Afterall, size really does matter isnt it?;p

Another story

Dulu saya ingat mengidam itu adalah nafsu semata. Nafsu yang sebenarnya boleh dikawal. Tapi sejak saya ternampak that Chicken Mandy photo yang Wawa uploaded in the FB like last month, seriously I cant stop thinking about it until now. And yes, until now I havent got the chance to taste it. Though I keep on reminding the hubby to bring me there, but most of the time, mesti ada saja hal. He was busylah, we were up for something else lah, until last week, when my other pregnant lunchmate told me she had it for breakfast, I was like so envy. Why on earth I still havent got the chance to have it but she can have it even for breakfast? And when I told hubby, I wanted it so badly, but still hubby said he was so busy that day, I was crying. I was surprised too like what the heck I'm crying in the office because the hubby told me he was busy and cant bring me to Al-Rawsha? But the frustration wasnt stop there and continued in the morning when I told hubby how frustrated I am, and without notice, my tears dropped again.

Well, knowing the hubby, he is not the type of hubby that will follow everything that I want. No excuse even though I am carrying his son. He expressed his frustration towards me as well and said I'm just being so mengada. He said, "there are people who dont have food to eat but you, you are just crying because you cant have that chicken mandy." Obviously, I was a bit sad then and merajuk for 5 mins. But after further thoughts, yes I agree. Maybe I am just being so childish for that. So the case is closed. But I still crave for that minus the crying part. Hehe. Now, I still keep on thinking that maybe mengidam is just my own lust! Heh.

Btw, the weekend was spent very well at Taiping though at first I had scary thought of being delivered the baby at Taiping. Haha. But then, bila dah sampai, sangat seronok bila pulang bukan berdua sahaja. Adik-beradik Pijoi semua ada kecuali Kakak dan Ayip. Kami buat bbq 2 days in a row for lunch. Hehe. Idea Pijoi. And not bad for his 1st attempt of his own recipe to marinate the Chicken and lamb for the 1st day and the fish for the 2nd day. Yummy! Saya asyik makan, makan, dan makan. Hihi.

And before went back home yesterday, saya berkesempatan untuk meminta maaf to Ibu Pijoi and asked her to pray for me and the baby. To be surprised, she didnt only give me the kisses as usual but a kiss for the baby too. Yes, she kissed my belly too and told baby boy to be nice to me. Hehe. I was so touched till I felt like crying but I didnt. Malulah saya kalau nangis. Huhu. But hopefully, baby boy feels the loves from his Mak Tok too.:)

Dilemma

Sejak akhir-akhir ni, memang sukalah sakit perut memulas. Tak paham kenapa. Bila lapar, memulas, nak be*ak, memulas, ada angin memulas, dan macam-macam lah lagi. Memang tak paham. Tapi si ibu mengandung tidak lagi freak out rasa nak bersalin ke apa. Dah semakin rilek. Menanti dengan penuh kesabaran. Eceh. Tapi bersyukurlah jugak sebab setakat ini tak ada pulak heart burn, kaki pun tak bengkak, cuma gemuk sikit, pinggang tu kadang-kadang je sakit. Alhamdulillah untuk kesihatan yang baik.

Paling seronok, semalam check up, baby boy dah 2.7kg. huhu. Cepatnya besar. Last month baru 2kg je. Patutlah mummy pun cepat membesar. Baby boy nak suruh mummy teman dia membesar rupanya. Haha. Daddy pulak yang ngade-ngade nak mengurus. Dia kata nak cuba sama berat dengan ibu mengandung. Huh. Membencikan.

Oh ya. Nak ucap tahniah kat bapak baby boy sebab dah officially promoted jadi senior. Tapi yang sedihnya, tengah off peak pun dah mula nak balik lambat. Nanti during peak macamana? Nampak gayanya, mummy tengok muka baby boy, baby boy tengok muka mummy sajelah. Sobss. Sobss. Seperti ibu dan anak yang terabai. Huhu. Anyway, ibu mengandung juga dimurahkan rezeki. Gaji naik sampai menggembirakan. Comel sungguhlah company saya. Jadi dengan seronoknya, dapatlah ibu mengandung melengkapkan semua barang baby boy. Sekarang dah boleh bersalin dengan tenang dan aman damai. Huhu.

Sebut pasal bersalin, sejak akhir-akhir ni, terasa yang amat nak bersalin di KL. Rasa macam lebih menggembirakan. Terbayang lepas bersalin, kawan-kawan semua datang melawat. Jadi kuranglah rasa kesakitan. Tapi kalau di JB, siapa nak lawat? Nurse dan gynae sajalah. Sobss. Malas nak fikir. Baby boy, please decide. Arahan pertama mummy!

My Story

This week marks the 36th week of my pregnancy. Oh how time flies so fast. It's almost full term and the baby is ready to meet his daddy and mommy anytime soon. ;)

But thinking of the pregnancy journey will be ended soon, it makes me sad at the same time. I know I'm going to miss the whole my 1st pregnancy journey. Miss all the good and exciting feelings. Ahh, you knowlah how excited this mommy-to-be is on what to expect everyday, always wondering how she would look in a month time, to notice the 1st baby's movements, etc, etc. Ahhhh..that is called bliss. Surely, it's the best moment in my life. :)

I know that I'm pregnant as early as 3 weeks after my wedding since I had a mild nausea especially right after brushing my teeth in the morning. Though I didnt really sure about it but I know there was something wrong with me. Did I tell you that I was scared as well at that time? Who doesnt anyway especially when you just got married. Well, I really didnt expect it would be that super fast. Huhu. But afterall, the hubby eagerness and excitedness to have a baby makes me feel confident that I'm also ready for any future possibility. Chewah!

But, the first 4 months of the pregnancy journey was not good for me. Seriously it is physically and mentally challenged. I doubted whether I'm ready for this when I was having all those morning sickness thingy and physical changes. I still remembered how I hate food but I need food most of the time to fill my tummy. Else, sakit perut. I cant eat almost everything especially those oily ones, thus I hate KFC so much. My fav food was milk and fruits until one day I vomitted the milk, so goodbye to the fresh milk after that. Haha. I also hate times when I was full. I felt like vomitting but I tried to not too, I cant lying down so I slept sit up straight till morning, my belly felt like bloated though I was hungry, dizziness for 24/7 and bla bla. Sometimes, I felt like it was a super bad nightmare. Urghh.

And everything was like super hard when the hubby went outstation for 3 weeks. Gosh. But, how did I tackle this? I talked to the baby to calm me down, always looked at the baby's scan to forget the sickness, and of course pray to Allah to give me the strength to go through it. And Alhamdulillah, believe it or not everything is just fine. ;)

Like most of the preggers have told, second trimester is the best pregnancy journey ever. It is so true bebeh. The morning sickness is suddenly gone, I love foods, foods and foods. I can already cook my meal and that is the best meal ever. And the hormone makes me a super happy mommy-to-be. Yes. Since pregnant, I was like super happy though I might crying to certain things sometimes. And certainly, I feel the love everywhere. Oh, did I tell you that I like to see myself in the mirror cause I feel preety and beautiful? Perasan giler. But that's what I did. Kah kah.

Early of 3rd trimester was ok until the middle of the 3rd trimester when I started to feel a lil bit unwell and useless sometimes. I cant do much chores and much walking anymore since I'm easily get tired. Especially when I'm an anemic. But the baby's kickings and movements are priceless as compared to any discomforts that I have. I feel blessed, loved, and so happy till I am surely know that I'm going to miss it. Seriously now I cant wait to hold and kiss the lil heart but at the same time I want to be a pregger. Huhu.

To those who scared to be pregnant, please dont be cause it is the best moment in a women's life;) Minus the delivery lah cause I'm yet to know. Let me check it out, how scary it is. Haha.

P/S: To hubby, thank you so much for your support and help throughout the whole journey. Without you it would be much difficult and wont be this wonderful. And the awesome friends, you guys are rocks! Colour my life as gorgeous as the rainbow. Hundred zillions thanks and loves from the mommy and baby for everything. :)

Anak aku lagi comellah.

I like this one Baby's stuff website called Lollytot in FB few months ago. This Lollytot organised the 2010 Cutest Little One Contest. And today, I stumbled into the winner for the month photo and believe it or not, siap ade sesi kutuk mengutuk sebab gambar2 anak diorang kalah.
Kah kah kah. Anak kalah, mak bapak yang emo. Macam budak2. Hadiah tak seberapa, emo je lebih. Lawak gile. Haih.

Nasihat saya, lainkali sebelum submit photo, edit photoshop dulu letak muka model baby. Barulah boleh menang. haha. Kasihannya.

False Alarm!!

Ahad adalah weekend yang aneh. Bangun pagi jam 6.30 pagi mula terasa sakit perut. Sakit perut yang sedikit aneh bagi saya. Cuba untuk lupa, saya jalan sana sini di dalam rumah. Dah penat. Sambung tidur. Sedar-sedar sudah jam 9.30 pagi. Wohoo. Lama gile tidur.

Bangun tidur, ingatkan sudah hilang sakit perut. Tapi sangkaan meleset sama sekali. Masih sakit. Tapi mula ragu-ragu. Mungkin lapar sebab malam Sabtu makan tersangat banyak di Flamming Steamboat. Jadi bangun terus buat sarapan. Makan sedikit dan terus mengemas. Bukan kemas rumah tapi kemas hospital bag. Haha. Hati mula risau sebab baju baby belum lagi berbasuh. Tapi saya kemas dulu hospital bag saya. Belum siap 100% tapi 70% adalah.

Perut masih sakit. Hati jadi makin risau. Tak tau itu sakit contractions atau bukan. Terus call mama tanya macamana sakit nak bersalin, tapi mama pun tak reti nak explain. Jadi, saya terus tidur semula sampai tengah hari.

Bangun tidur masih tidak sihat. Tapi gagahkan diri kemas dapur dan membasuh baju budak kecik. Huhu. Letih juga ya walaupun cuma celup2 saja. Kah kah. Dasar ibu lembik. Jadi akhirnya, Yeay! Baju budak kecik sudah siap basuh dan lipat sekarang. Suka suka suka!! :D

Two Bags @70% completion. 1 for Mommy and 1 for Baby. Daddy punya kemas sendiri.;p

Budak kecik sudah 34 minggu and I am waddling right now. Terasa kaki sangat lemah untuk menampung keberatan budak kecik dan lemak-lemak yang menempel di badan dengan jayanya. The gynae has already explained to me the signals of actual labour which is basically almost the same with what I have read all this while.

So here are the 3 major signals:

1) Keluar darah seperti haid

2) Air ketuban pecah. Air ketuban is almost the same as air kencing tapi bila air ketuban pecah kita tak boleh tahan untuk stop it.

3) Contractions in a constant rate. Doc said sakit contractions macam kejang perut tapi kejap ada kejap tak ada.

Bila 1 of the signals is shown, normally it takes 10 hours to deliver the baby. Doc kata kalau nak balik kampung untuk bersalin pun sempat. Haha. Having said that, if budak kecik is a bit excited untuk keluar before 39 weeks, I choose PMC KL at Bangsar untuk deliver the baby. And if he is a bit patient, JSH would be the one. So let's see how. Both the gynaes are men, Dr Idris and Dr Hafetz. But they are equally good for the time being. Recommended.

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Selamat Petang Semua..

Mari kita berceloteh sambil makan cempedak goreng. Yummeh. I tell you. Hehe. Rasa macam tak cukup beli cempedak sebijik. Heh. Tapi cempedak masih mahal. RM5 sekg di Taiping. Kalau di KL, tak tahulah berapa agaknya. Nasib baik sedap dan manis. Jadi, berbaloi-baloi.

Enough pasal cempedak. Mari kita cerita tentang barangan bayi. Boleh dikatakan hampir cukup semuanya. Stroller, car seat, baby cot, checked. Bought in Singapore for the great bargain. Baby bath tub sudah pun dirasmikan oleh si abah baby. Barut baby, ordered and paid. Tak sabar menuggu parcel lagi 3 hari. Receiving blanket, changing mat, bottle warmer, blanket, etc juga sudah tersedia. First Year baby swaddle, mobile mattress, set penjagaan kesihatan bayi First Year, diapers bag, bantal busuk, First Year baby bottles set, etc juga sudah ada, pemberian rakan-rakan yang baik hati sewaktu Baby Shower. Terima kasih sekali lagi.

Jadi, tinggal beberapa barang kecil dan 1 barang besar yang mahal masih belum di beli. Baby's toiletries, wet wipes, minyak telon, lotion, semua belum dibeli. Masih terasa terlalu awal untuk membeli barang2 kecil. Padahal tinggal saja lagi 6 minggu. Kah kah. Dan 1 barangan besar yang mahal dan masih tertangguh ialah the breastpump. And Medela Swing is in the first list now. Sebenarnya tengah menunggu fulus akhir bulan ini. Or ada sesiapa yang mahu menghadiahkan Medela Swing untuk saya? Hehe.

Toys? Nanti dululah. Tapi kemungkinan besar akan terbeli Lamaze Gardenbug Foot Finder and Wrist Rattle set sebab si ibu mengandung memang teringin dari awal. Lebih kurang macam mengidamlah. Kah kah.

Tinggal lagi 6 minggu dari sekarang. Perasaan? Sedikit gentar, terlalu banyak excited, mengah, berat, letih, dan terkedek-kedek. Tidur semakin tidak lena. Bila perut sudah berat dan penuh dengan bayi comel ini, semua position tidak selesa. Mujur tinggal sebulan setengah saja lagi. Tapi scan 2 minggu lepas bayi comel sudah mula turun ke bawah cuma belum engaged. Adakah ini normal? Aduhai, risaunya hati saya sampai sekarang. Sabar ya anak comel. Jangan terlalu excited. Santai-santai dulu di dalam perut Mama ya ;)

Isnin, 5 Julai, genap 3 tahun kami bersama. Mahu cerita kenangan lama yang indah isnin lepas tapi kami dikejutkan pula dengan kematian nenek Pijoi. Jadi, kami bergegas pulang ke Taiping petang itu. Al-fatihah untuk Tok. Semoga roh Tok ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.

Dan kenangan indah itu, nanti sajalah saya cerita. ;D

I love you Bebeh. Thank you for the wonderful 3 years..

Meroyanlah Pulak

Semalam hari murung. Seharian mahu menangis je. Siap tak boleh tidur 1 malam. Semua hal negara nak difikir. Lagi tension bila tengah2 malam sibuk pulak nak membelek diri sepenuhnya. Siap angkut cermin lagi nak tengok rupa perut macamana. Lepas tu makin stress bila tetiba nampak stretch marks. Pandai eh ko sembunyi. Mentang2 aku tak leh nak nampak. Heh. Ingatkan dah terlepas dari stretch marks sebab Bio Oil. Rupanya tak. Huuuu. Sedih. Sedih. Tapi tak apalah baby, mama gembira je tengok baby dah makin besar dan makin berat. ;)

Sebut pasal baby, sekarang ni dah ramai pulak yang concern perut saya nampak besar. Haih. Tak paham ok. Besar cakap pelik, kecik cakap tak normal. Stress aku. Logiklah, baby aku pun nak membesar gak. Lagipun saat2 akhir ni memang tumbesaran baby cepat sikit. Berat pun akan bertambah banyak. Jadi tak perlu heranlah. Everything is fine. InsyaAllah. Ada 8 minggu lagi. Hooo Yeahhh!! Tak sabarnya!;)

Mama saya semakin excited. Siap dah plan apa nak buat bila dia kena ambil ayah di Changi Airport nanti, nak mandikan baby kat mana, nak kena makan jamu apa, dan macam2lah. Dia siap doa2, saya bersalin lepas ayah saya balik 16/8 nanti sebab dia takut macamana nak handle and drive me to the hospital. Eh. Eh. Siapa yang nak bersalin sekarang ni. Konpius. haha. Ayah pun dua kali lima. Siap dah tempah tukang masak untuk akikah sampai orang ingat saya dah selamat bersalin. Haha. Tapi sangat bahagialah bila tengok atuk dan nenek juga crazy about the baby. Bliss.

Owh hari ini hari gembira juga walaupun sakit2 kaki jalan dekat the curve. Ibu mengandung setiap hari dah bersedihan tengok satu2 baju dah tak leh nak pakai. Nak beli baju mengandung macam rugi dan ermm..tak lawa pulak tu. hihi Sebenarnya hati dah terkenan kat kemeja goggles ni tapi kat OU and the curve tak ada pulak. Nak pegi The Gardens malas. Nasib akulah. Siapa suruh malaskan. Tapi nasib baik jalan2 terjumpa blouse comel dekat booth the Curve. Comel tu comellah sebab saya suka kan. Jadi hati tersangat gembira. So dah tak murung and setel semua masalah negara. How easy to please me kan kan?

Bapak baby meroyan teringin nak mandi dalam bathtub. Haha.

Bathtub ni punya pasal terpaksa tawaf Ikea dua kali. Heh. Nasib baik saya ada private masseur. Hihi. I love you sayang!! ;D

Perutku boroi ada baby lah!

Harini pagi-pagi lagi sudah ada kejadian yang berlaku. Kejadian berlaku sekitar jam 8.30 pagi sewaktu saya mahu naik lift ke ofis. Seperti biasa, saya berjalan agak lambat selepas duduk di dalam kereta. Sebabnya, budak pipi layut ni suka sangat bertenggek di sebelah kanan. Jadi effect kekebasan kaki selepas duduk sangatlah terasa. Kemudian, saya selisih jalan dengan seorang makcik yang tak dikenali, yang dari tadi tersenyum2 melihat saya. Siap ikut tu sampai lift. Tiba-tiba sedang saya tunggu lift, makcik tak dikenali menyapa.



Makcik : Kenapa jalan lambat sangat dik, mengandung ke?

Saya : (muka terkejut. Huh. Apekah? Tak nampak ke perut aku dah boroi ni?). Haah. Saya mengandung. (saya jawab dengan senyuman kurang ikhlas tapi lemah lembut)

Makcik : Ooo (muka masih tidak puas hati). Berapa bulan dah?

Saya : (Eh eh makcik ni) 7 bulan cik.

Makcik : Ooo dah dekat dah.

Saya : Haah. Nak bersalin dah.



Haih. Nasib baik kau ialah makcik. Jadi aku anggap sajalah dia inersen. Tapi dalam hati panas je weh. Takkanlah perut aku boroi camni tak ada isi kot. Aduss. Susahlah orang-orang ni. Kang aku gemuk, kata "eh gemuknya kau time mengadung". Ni aku kurus (perasan kurus jap) ingat perut aku boroi sesaja pulak?! Isk isk. Siap ada tu orang yang risau-risau tanya baby aku normal ke tak sebab perut aku kecik katanya. Huh stress tahu tak!

Pernah jugak saya gurau-gurau dengan Pijoi, kononnya ada lelaki hensem mahu ngorat saya. Saja mahu counter back sebab dia perasan ramai peminat. Tapi tahu apa dia jawab, "Eleh, siapalah nak kat pompuan perut buncit cam awak! hahahhahahaha (disertakan dengan gelak jahat)" Nguuuu. Sampai hati!!

My name is not Khan..

Hello uncles. Hello aunties.

Aint I cute? Mommy called me budak pipi layut. And she said I look just like daddy because of that pipi. Mommy thinks my nose is a bit penyek and big like daddy's too and daddy thinks my lips are sexy just like him. He added I will be a good kisser though mommy said dont be too perasan. So I'm confused then. Will check it out later.

Oh btw, my name is Khan. Eh no no. Itu tajuk cerita hindustan kata mommy. Actually, I am not sure yet what my name is cause mommy said it's so hard to find a nice name for a very cute, chubby lil boy like me. But worry not, she will find one before I'm out there to see the world. Trust you mommy. But make sure it is awesome and cool eh!

I am 30 weeks old today. Meaning that, there will be another 10 weeks to go before I can be in mommy & daddy's arms. I am so excited cause I know many cute girls & beautiful ladies (especially the aunties) that will love me too. Wohoo!! Cant wait to get lots of hugs & kisses.

Ok gotta go now. Wanna go out with mommy to eat mommy's fav ikan bakar and Lai Chi Kang ya'all. Yummmehhh!! Oh btw, this is another cool shot of me.

Tata.

The Surprise Baby Shower

"Friendship is precious, not only in the shade, but in the sunshine of life"

Me & Baby Boy @ 29weeks & 2 days

How should I start this entry? Well, I should say I am the happiest, luckiest mommy-to-be! Guess what. My bestest friends back in Canter Uni, threw me an awesome, surprise baby shower. Oh my. Oh my. Nothing I could say. Hugs & kisses & zillion thanks to all my bestest friends :)

At first, I thought kami akan keluar makan bersama since Fiza & Ofa is here. Since Hubby juga bersepakat dengan mereka, jadi saya pun percayalah. Cuma adalah sedikit kepelikan bin ajaib sebab all of sudden kena pergi ambil Fiza & Ofa di rumah Alia. Selalunya, of koslah encik Bils akan mengangkut mereka. Tapi, entah kenapa, saya ikutkan saja. Mungkin ada sebab2 tertentu. Sampai2 di rumah Alia, jumpa auntie kejap. Then auntie ajak masuk. Lagipun Fiz & Ofa masih bersiap katanya. Few mins later, then Alia panggil cakap nak tunjuk something to me. Ok Fine. I followed. Then, bila saja saya buka langsir pintu, "SURPRISE!!!!" Terkejut aku sekejap dengan jeritan diorang. Haha. Nasib baik belum cukup 40 minggu. Kalau tak mungkin boleh terberanak. Huhu. Nevertheless, I was like sooooo happy and glad to see most of them. Lama kot tak jumpa though masing2 duduk kat KL. So so so happy.

Then, sesi pegang2 perut by the girls. But kasihan mereka, baby sedang tidur. Anakku sekarang, kalau dh tido, memang jarang dah nak gerak sangat ya. Lagilah before gerak ke rumah Alia, dia baru saja bangun dan menari2 dengan gembira. Jadi usaha membangunkan dia tidak berjaya. Huhu. Sorilah auntie2 ye. Maybe next time or bila baby dah keluar. Silalah gomol2 dia;)

Food was seriously sedap especially the lasagna. The homemade dadih by Alia & Ofa pun yummeh!! Oh I like all the foods please. Makan sampai perut makin boroi. Hehe. Then, sambil makan we were still talking and gossipping for non-stop till the end. Tapi in the middle, we had the pressie time. Me likey! Thanks guys for all the lovely pressies;) and Baby Boy, please say thank you to your aunties and uncles please. Belum keluar sudah banyak kasih sayang. See, you're so lucky my dear lil boy:)Then, the helium gas session was the best lah! Seriously, it reminds me of the good-old-days back in Chch. Full of laughter and funny voices. Haha. Terbaeklah! Gelak sampai sakit2 perut.

Gelak punya gelak, we didnt realise dah pukul 12 malam. So everyone was heading back home including me. And that was the end of my baby shower party. I was extremely happy and until now I am still smiling. Thank you so much korang. Doakan kami berdua ya;) Nanti boleh kita makan2 and catching up lagi.

Ps: I Love You..

Beautiful girls all over the world
I could be chasing but my time would be wasted
They got nothin' on you baby
Nothin' on you baby
They might say hi and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry about what they say
Cause they got nothin' on you baby
Nothin' on you baby

Hubby's new fav song. He keeps on singing several times to me with hugs and kisses. I am so flattered that way. ;) That also means he doesnt want me to worry so much and cemburu buta. Yes, I am always cemburu buta with him lately and sometimes it did make me cry. But dont blame me, the history makes me a good paranoia. Thanks to the 1st love but am sure know that now is the time for me to be wiser in handling the emotions. And the most important, I know hubby loves me so much as well as the lil boy. ;)

A Bad Day

Oh what a day! I had a not-very-good-day today. When morning comes not with smiling, the whole day would turn out worst. Anyway, I left my purse yesterday in my workstation drawer. For the 1st time ever, I left it. Then, this morning, I told my husband that I want to drive my car. And off he went to client's in Shah Alam with his white, gorgeous Myvi. But remember, this preggy mommy always forget on litte things lately? How can she drive her car without the security card which she keeps safely in her purse anyway?

Surprisingly, I didnt panic like usual, so I called few colleagues whom can offer me a ride today. Well a not-so-good-day doesnt mean that I have to be unlucky the whole day. My colleague who stays at the same apartment with me, who is also usually reached office by 8am, still hasnt go to the office yet today. Miracle but Pheww! Settle one big problem.

Then the late afternoon, hubby called me for the spare key as he would like to fetch me from office. The Myvi is safely parked outside with a good spot. So cant kacau already. But then, my car went wrong when the alarm was singing loudly once hubby used the spare key. Nice one beteh. So instead of going back at 6.30pm and planning to have dinner at Popeye, I ended up went back at 8.30pm with my colleague and eat Megi Kari. Plus hubby is keep blaming me of not leaving the primary key at home. Why lah! So crying is the best medicine for the moment.

I am so frustrated with myself lately. I am not only weak and big, but so clumsy, forgetful on most of the things, and emotional too. Oh my! What a pathetic preggy woman I am right now. Normalkah or it is just me?

Hari Emo yang Sengal

Hari ini hari emo. Sikit-sikit nak nangis. Pagi tadi, kemas rumah. Cuma sapu sampah dan mop dapur je. Tapi rasa penat sangat sampai sesak nafas. Lepas tu terus2 je nak nangis. Lagi sedih bila Pijoi tak bagi basuh bilik air, tapi dia tak basuh2 lagi. Frust sungguh tengok bilik air kotor. Tapi lagi frust bila rasa diri hopeless tak mampu dah nak buat kerja. .

Tengahari pergi Ikea untuk lunch. Suami tak bagi masak. Kesian kat ibu mengandung dah kepenatan. Hehe. Lagipun teringin nak makan spaghetti meatball and chicken wings. Yummeh! Lepas kekenyangan, jalan2 bazir duit. Hajat nak beli daun hidup yang hijau. Rumah sekangkang kera, daun hijau sajalah yang boleh ditanam. Penat juga rupanya jalan kat Ikea sekarang ni. Tu pon tak pergi window shopping kat showroom. Direct terus cari pokok2 hijau. Orang agak ramai tapi tak lah seramai mana. Sebab dah kepenatan, saya tak mahu teman Pijoi beratur bayar pokok hijau. Konon nak cari tempat duduk. Tapi tetiba, saya ternampak biskut enak yang saya selalu pow boss saya. Jadi tanpa berlengah lagi, terkedek-kedek saya pergi membeli biskut enak. Rupanya, Pijoi kejap saja sudah siap bayar. Siap dah turun ke tempat parking. Dengan kegelabahan sebab tak perasan Pijoi, maka saya pon terus turun nak ke tempat parking.

Pijoi dah keep on calling, tanya saya kat mana. Dengan penuh yakin, saya cakap saya nak pergi parking kereta. Saya pusing-pusing tempat parking kereta tu dekat 10 kali kot. Dalam hati yakin, tadi parking dekat dengan entrance, tapi kecewa tak nampak batang hidung kereta. Pijoi asyik call cakap dia kat entrance. Saya makin stress jalan ulang-alik dari parking lot and entrance. Sampai rasa nak nangis sebab dah penat sangat. Jadi saya duduk kejap dekat dengan entrance. Tiba-tiba saya terperasan, eh eh, sejak bila ada tangga pergi bawah ni? Dem dem dem. Saya dah dapat agak dah kenapa saya tak jumpa2 kereta or Pijoi.

Dengan kaki yang longlai, saya turun tangga. Tak sampai seminit, saya dah nampak Pijoi. Jadi apalagi, terus melalaklah saya. Haha. Serius rasa macam budak kecik yang hilang kat pasar malam dan kemudian jumpa balik dengan parents. Haha. Sengalnya. Sengalnya. Tak tahu kenapa boleh jadi sesengal ini.

Jadi pengajarannya, lepas ni jangan sibuk mencari makanan sorang2. Sekian.

Introducing, pokok hijau kami yang pertama.

Budak Kecik @ 26 weeks

Hi semua. Rajin pulak saya beberapa hari ni nak update blog. Nanti bila dah datang aura malas, memang berkurunlah tak update langsung.

Hari ini sudah 26 minggu 4 hari usia budak kecik dalam perut. Makin hari semakin berat. Makin aktif. Suka tengok budak kecik tendang-tendang, tumbuk-tumbuk, gerakan freestyle dan semua aksilah. Mesti perut saya gerak-gerak dan benjol-benjol. Paling budak kecik ni suka ialah menyondol perut ibu di bahagian kanan. Sangat comel dan kelakarlah budak kecik ini. Eh.Eh. Macam tau-tau pula ibu mengandung sedang cerita tentang budak kecik. Dari tadi menari-nari sakan. Hehe.

Tapi semenjak saya boleh rasa pergerakan budak kecik 10 minggu yang lalu, kadang-kadang saya paranoid bila budak kecik lambat bangun atau tidak berapa nak gerak. Contohnya, sekarang ni, budak kecik selalu bangun lebih kurang pukul 8 pagi, tapi bila pukul 8 pagi, budak kecik tak gerak-gerak, mulalah saya nak runsing semacam. Rasa macam nak terus pergi klinik untuk menjenguk budak kecik. Dan kalau boleh, mahu terus tukar profession jadi doktor supaya saya boleh menjenguk budak kecik setiap jam. Huh. Memang saiko ibu mengandung ini.

Tapi memang sekarang sudah tidak sabar-sabar mahu mengendong budak kecik. Hilang semua rasa takut nak bersalin. Yang ada cuma rasa teruja dan imaginasi budak kecik yang sedang menggeliat nak bangun tidur. Isk. Comelnya. Suka sangatlah tengok bayi yang menggeliat. Cair!

Tinggal lagi 1 minggu dan 3 hari untuk tamat 2nd trimester. Dan tinggal 14 minggu lagi untuk saya menggomol budak kecik. Tak sabar. Tak sabarnya, ya Allah! Kawan-kawan yang baik hati, doakan kami ya. And lil hero, let's do it together sayang.;)

Kasut budak kecik yang saya paling suka. Kepala Hippo boleh bunyi-bunyi. Comelkan?

Nostalgia

Subhanallah. Panasnya. Dah pasang 2 kipas dengan kelajuan maksima pun masih panas. Haih. Bilalah nak dapat aircond satu.

Petang tadi adalah petang mengimbas nostalgia. Suami sibuk membongkar folder2 lama, mengenang zaman muda-mudi yang menyeronokkan. Yes, I agree with that too. Zaman muda-mudi universiti adalah zaman yang paling menyeronokkan dalam hidup. Lebih2 lagi bila jauh diperantauan. Lebih mencabar dan memorable.

Gambar ialah binatang-binatang origami yang 'kawan' buatkan untuk saya 3 tahun lepas. Saya hanya berstatus "Seribu burung kertas" di YM 2-3 hari sebelum itu. Kemudian, 'kawan' itu terus hadiahkan saya binatang-binatang kertas ini. Ada 3 ekor burung semuanya berserta seekor tupai. Tapi sudah cukup untuk membuai perasaan saya ketika itu. Indahnya. Indahnya. Dan siapa sangka, 'kawan' ini adalah teman hidup saya buat selamanya. Ps: Love you more!;)

Sebelum menamatkan sesi mengenang nostalgia lama, saya sempat juga membaca semula bait2 indah yang suami ilhamkan semasa kami masih baru berkawan. Ini entry pertama suami selepas 2 tahun. Dan ini entry pertama yang saya baca pada malam hari jadi suami yang ke 23 tahun. Itu pun suami yang sibuk beritahu saya. Haha. Tapi ini puisi yang paling saya suka sampai bila-bila. ;)

maafkan aku kerna tak memuji
bukannya aku tak memerhati
hanya ku simpan saja di dalam hati
ku panjatkan syukur dan puji pada Ilahi

maafkan aku jika tak memberi
bukannya aku tak mahu berkongsi
hanya ku pendam kedap di sini
menanti masa dan hari yang pasti

maafkan aku andai tak mengerti
bukannya buta dan bukan juga tuli
hanya ku harap dapat terus berdiri
moga dapat ku papar seri di hati

sepuluh jari ku susun teratur
memohon ampun andai terlanjur
pinta ku mudah tidak bersiur
impikan yang cerah tidak yang kabur.

Love..Love..Love...

Sometimes, being pregnant is kind of funny for me. I can crave for something even though I just read someone's fb status yang kadang2 tiada kaitan at all with food. Contohnya seperti di bawah.Tapi for sure, mengidam ni saya rasa more to nafsu dan hasutan syaitan. Sebabnya, selalu teringin itu ini, tapi bila tak dapat, esoknya kadang2 dah tak heran sangat. Tapi kadang2 teringin lagi, sampai dapat baru puas. Tak dapat yg betul, yang tiruan pon jadilah. Huhu.

And yesterday, I made a homemade candle light dinner for the dearest husband. Just a simple one but for sure one of the memorable moments. I can still remember hubby's wide smile when he reached home. So precious ;)

Lamb shoulder steak, fries and coleslaw with a heartshape tomato. I can feel the love beybeh!! ;p

Birthday Boy and me and a homemade birthday card with lots of love;)