Reality Check

Shall I start this entry with this?

Or this one?

Geeeezz..at last after more than 3 years, I can have all of these back. Makan sepuas2nye sampai tak hengat dunia. Itu pon selepas 'hujan lebat' turun tak henti hari Sabtu yg lepas *ngeeeee* Harini saye beli segalanye sesuke hati. Actly I shouldnt have bought all these if last emotional saturday I didnt have that bloody bad PMS *sigh* Biarkan saje. Seorg yg independent tidak memerlukan bantuan org lain jika hanya mau makan buah durian. Errr apek jual durian mungkin tidak dianggap sbg 'org lain'. Kalo tak, sape mau kopekkan durian utk saye *hihi* Anyhow, anyway, saye sgt puas hati walaupon durian itu tidaklah sesedap yg saye harapkan!

Harini saye chatting ngn alianess semase waktu keje. And somehow now I realized that we always talked about jobs and career and future everytime we have a chat. Nothing else than that, I wud say. Alianess qouted, "It depends on what we want in our career". Ye, saye rase mmg btoi ape yg Alia ckp. Tapi how do I know what I want in my career when my future seems sooooooo blur right now. Kalo saje Penang dan JB itu dekat seperti Penang dan Tepeng, alangkah indahnye dunia. Dan kalo saje Penang dan KL itu seperti Damansara dan Shah Alam, hidup semestinya sudah sempurna bagaikan langit yg disinari matahari dan pelangi.

Honestly, i have started to love my job, to love my colleagues, to love my company, to love my comfy yet small cube, but not really to love my mgr;p Sebenarnye saye dlm dilemma. Harini saye attend an IFRS global project overview. Somehow, I am interested to join this ad hoc project. Boleh menambah knowledge and experience saye lg. Tapi..sekali lagi, tapi...if I got the chance to join this project, I need to give my full commitment, at least until June next year. And that means I shall not think of to resign at anytime until the project is done. Will sweetheart say yes to this project??!! *fingers crossed* Again..I will say "It depends on what we want in our career" *sigh*

One shall say "You may call me a dreamer. But I'm not the only One!" Yes, I am a dreamer. But I'm not the only one *ngeeee, ulang ayat die* Byk yg saye impikan. Dan mungkin separuh dr impian saye itu bagaikan a happily ever after fairy tale story that will not be come true. Never. Tapi skang ni saye impikan diri saye penuh dgn kesabaran seperti mama saye dan juga kematangan dan kedewasaan. Ya, saye perlukan semua ini! I should, and really should! At least before I officially move to the nxt stage. Patience will do and oohhh plis..stop being childish Liana *Melemaskan!*