How to raise a child?

I always wonder what is the best way to raise a child? I always keep on asking myself, is this right? Is this good?

Aidan is in the midst of duplicating whatever that he likes. I noticed it during hari raya break when we were at kampung. He likes to duplicate whatever his big cousin do. When his big cousin jumped, he would jump. When big cousin spit, he would spit too. He even talked a lot more new vocabs like "Jom", "Adam", "Dirty" and etc during the week. Thus, I can foresee the peer pressure when we send him to school next year. Sangat mendebarkan.

His big cousin and the brother always threw tantrum during the week sampai saya rasa kesian with SIL and the husband. Like seriously. When I looked how toddlers can be when they were throwing tantrum, saya terus bersyukur dan rasa Aidan is a very good boy. Bukan nak puji (walaupun puji sikit) tapi Aidan memang jarang mengamuk. Kalau menangis pun kejap je. Kalau dia marah pun, tak ada sampai guling-guling hentak kaki atas lantai. For the time being tak pernah terjadi. Alhamdulillah. Sebab tu saya terfikir, kenapa some toddlers suka mengamuk? What went wrong? Apa cara yang terbaik? Apa yang betul? Am I doing the right one?

Some people said, ikut kata hati. Tapi kalau kata hati salah macamana? Kalau tersalah, susah nak patah balik atau mungkin tak dapat nak patah balik terus. Hah. That is the scariest thought that I ever had.

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin. :)

4am in the morning

Hubby woke me up at 2am and now, I am still wide awake. Heh. Done with sahur in case we tertidur balik.
I am too gigih typing this on blogger apps. Seems cool. But not sure with the outcome.
We are planning to held a small birthday party with close family tonite. Soon to be two boy has been practising singing Happy Birthday song and blowing an imaginary candle since last night. Haha. Cant wait for the real one. My cheeky darling baby is a big boy now. Sobsss.
Will update on the birthday later.

Guilty Charge!

This month closing period is a bit tough for me. I had just moved to another role, handling a bigger country. Few months back, my predecessor always told me that I need to come to office as early as 8.30-9.00am on every WD3 (today is the day for example). Well, knowing me who likes to feed my darling baby his breakfast myself and put him to shower before we off to the babysitter, coming to office at that time is a bit impossible. This lil boy has a hard time to wake up early even though he sleeps at 10pm. Memang kuat tidur anak aku.

So, this month when I'm officially have started my new role, I already planned earlier that I just woke up early for sahur and quickly starts doing my work. And so here am I, doing my work while blogging and melayan this lil boy with pounding head since 5am. Great. Everything happens today. Luckily, this cheeky boy doesnt really disturb me except for asking for air, yoghurt, sing along with him, etc. Still acceptable. Kalau tak mahu saya bertukar jadi raksasa hijau!

I felt so guilty last night. I got really mad at Aidan till I said "I dont want to sleep with you!" and out to the living room just because he threw my handphone under the bed. Sebab susah nak ambil and hubby didnt really want to help me initially, I just got so frustrated. So then, I scolded him. He didnt cry neither dare to look at me. He just lie down still. After like 10 mins in the living room, then I got into the room and tried to get my handphone again. Luckily, this time, hubby helped me. Then, I got my handphone back and felt really guilty of scolding him badly. Sigh. I'm always a bad mother. Dah laa before sleep Abah scolded him sebab tak mahu makan ubat. Sigh. Sigh. He must be so sad last night.

I had pujuk Aidan right after that. I hug him and he hug me too. I said sorry and he said "sowi" too. *Tears* Then, we slept while hugging each other. And I just love to sleep in the middle between Abah and Aidan coz I've been cuddle by my two fav boys. Blissss. :)

Love

Saya bosan. Bosan dengan rutin harian akhir-akhir ini. I feel like I've been doing the same, boring routine every single day for ages. Like early morning, bangun, masak, kemas rumah, hantar Aidan, pergi kerja (buat benda sama/similar for the past 5 years), balik kerja, masak, lepak kejap, tidur. Itulah hidup seindah biasa saya. Maka saya bosan. 

We've been talking to migrate these few months but not much actions taken. But thinking of the new life, new environment, new job, and new place, somehow makes us excited much. Only if applying jobs abroad and migrating are easy, that would be great. Moga Allah izinkan dan permudahkan. 

"But love, I've come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." The Wedding by Nicholas Sparks

Don't you love those words from Nicholas Sparks? Well being married for few years, sometimes I tend to forget to appreciate on little things that he did, I dont really say sorry coz I thought that was just one small incident, or maybe I was too busy with the commitments and responsibilities that I have. But then, only I realized that marriage is not just responsibilities, respect, and devotion. It's the union of two love. So that it requires both souls to fall in love again and again.

Afterall, we are human. Tak pernah lari dari buat salah. Kalau salah jangan takut. Masih ada ruang untuk dibaiki. At least I'm lucky coz hubby and me talk on every single thing, either big or small. With that at least we know where has gone wrong. I pray that the love that we build diredhai Allah sentiasa.