Guilty Charge!

This month closing period is a bit tough for me. I had just moved to another role, handling a bigger country. Few months back, my predecessor always told me that I need to come to office as early as 8.30-9.00am on every WD3 (today is the day for example). Well, knowing me who likes to feed my darling baby his breakfast myself and put him to shower before we off to the babysitter, coming to office at that time is a bit impossible. This lil boy has a hard time to wake up early even though he sleeps at 10pm. Memang kuat tidur anak aku.

So, this month when I'm officially have started my new role, I already planned earlier that I just woke up early for sahur and quickly starts doing my work. And so here am I, doing my work while blogging and melayan this lil boy with pounding head since 5am. Great. Everything happens today. Luckily, this cheeky boy doesnt really disturb me except for asking for air, yoghurt, sing along with him, etc. Still acceptable. Kalau tak mahu saya bertukar jadi raksasa hijau!

I felt so guilty last night. I got really mad at Aidan till I said "I dont want to sleep with you!" and out to the living room just because he threw my handphone under the bed. Sebab susah nak ambil and hubby didnt really want to help me initially, I just got so frustrated. So then, I scolded him. He didnt cry neither dare to look at me. He just lie down still. After like 10 mins in the living room, then I got into the room and tried to get my handphone again. Luckily, this time, hubby helped me. Then, I got my handphone back and felt really guilty of scolding him badly. Sigh. I'm always a bad mother. Dah laa before sleep Abah scolded him sebab tak mahu makan ubat. Sigh. Sigh. He must be so sad last night.

I had pujuk Aidan right after that. I hug him and he hug me too. I said sorry and he said "sowi" too. *Tears* Then, we slept while hugging each other. And I just love to sleep in the middle between Abah and Aidan coz I've been cuddle by my two fav boys. Blissss. :)