Parenthood

I'm always inspired by mommy writings' talking about parenting. It's always fun to read their daily experiences in handling their kids or even just merely talking about the breastfeeding.

As a new mummy, parenting is not easy for me. I dont know this, I dont know that. Why my baby is still crying when he doesnt want milk anymore? I need guidances here and there. I read books, some baby-expert websites, and even blogs to master it. Nevertheless, most of the time, my instinct plays the big role here cause in the end, I know what's the best for my baby.

For example, some people think co-sleeping with baby is the best. But for me, I prefer to put my baby in his cot. In my defense, my bed is queen size only and I need an ample space for me to have a good night rest. In fact, me and hubby can have space together after a long tiring day juggling with works and a baby.

Breastfeed my baby is the most right thing that I do though I cant afford to exclusively breastfeed him during weekdays. He needs 16-18oz from 9am to 7pm a day. And I only manage to pump twice a day which equal 10-12oz for both pumping sessions. So per day, he will have 12oz of my EBM while the rest are formula. Tak mampu aa nak pump 3 kali sehari. Mahu kerja semua terbengkalai. Huhu. Nak pump time malam tak dapatlah. Sebelum tidur, Aidan memang bantai habis-habisan sampai bila saya nk pump, susu sangat sikit. 1oz pon tak sampai. Haih. But Alhamdulillah, now during weekends or the day that I'm not working, I manage to exclusively breastfeed him already. And yet, I'm still reading and trying on how to increase the milk supply.

When people say, "Tak bagi baby minum air ke?" or "Patut bagi baby makan umur 4 bulan" or "Membazir beli stroller/car seat cause baby sure nangis bila letak dalam tu", I just listen but that doesnt mean I agree. I breastfeed my baby and 70% of mommy's milk contains water so worry not, no dehydration issue here. My baby is just fine when we put him in the stroller or car seat since newborn and now he even enjoys it.

Am I rambling here? What I'm trying to say is just follow your heart. As long as it comes with an unconditional lots of love, whatever you decide and do will sure is the best for your baby.

Sayang saya tak?

My good friend back then in Uni uploaded this photo tribute to my lalings Fiz and Bils who got engaged last week. So memorable and obviously me and hubby were 'angau' at that time. So I commented that hubby looked so menggatal in that photo. Haha.

Last Sunday was my 1st Anniversary. Cepat kan dah setahun? Hehe So I did ask darling husband how much his love for me now? Makin banyak ke sama ke or makin kurang? He then did ask me back. Which one yang saya nak?! Heh. Nak jawapan selamatlah tu.

Knowing husband, he doesnt always tell me that he loves me or what but he always shows it. Tapi biasalah perempuan, bagi betis nak peha. So once in a while I must ask him "Sayang saya tak?" He will answer, "Sayang. Banyak sangat" quickly before I sempat to ask him the 2nd question "Banyak mana?" Cet. Tak ikhlas. Heh.

Anyway, Happy Belated 1st Anniversary darling husband. Tak ade hadiah sekarang tak pe. Tapi yang ke 30 jangan lupa 1 set diamond jeweleries ok!;p

Anak oh Anak

Semalam hari yang merunsingkan. Pagi-pagi Aidan sihat dan ceria. Menginjak tengahari dah mula merengek. Punyalah susah nak tidurkan. Kene dukung sana-sini sampai tak tahu berapa lama. Naik lenguh tangan pinggang. Nasib baiklah Aidan intan payung. Penat pun penatlah.

Tepat je jam 1 petang, tetiba Aidan melalak (bukan menyanyi. harap maklum) kuat gila sampai saya pun nak menangis. Ingatkan mengantuk, lalu cubalah naik kereta, sebab Aidan memang suka tidur dalam kereta. Lagipun, Fiz and Mek Su datang. So hajat hati nak lunch nasi ayam warisan yang lazat berserta air kelapa yang menyegarkan. Tapi malangnya, sepanjang perjalanan Aidan menangis tak henti-henti. Tak tahu dah nak buat apa. Dah sampai pun saya tak turun, suruh diorang tapau je lunch. Aidan masih menangis lagi dengan sangat nyaringnya macam menahan sakit. Nak kata kembung, kentut dan sendawa macam biasa. So saya cuma suspect dia sakit perut memulas sebab dah 5 hari tak bey. Akhirnya, Aidan hanya berhenti menangis masa on the way balik ke rumah sebab tertidur kepenatan menangis sakan. Kasihan anak. Dan bila episod petang nak bermula, saya teruslah bagi ubat. Berhenti menangis dan terus tidur.

Hidup kembali ceria dan seperti sediakala pagi ini. Aidan bersiap untuk 3 months vaccins and rotavirus. I told his paed on what had happened yesterday. Paed cakap sometimes, ada baby yang malas nk bey ok. Heh. Cenggitu rupanya. Tapi arini perut Aidan macam biasa. Tak ada apa-apa masalah. Haih laa budak-budak zaman sekarang. Nak bey pun malas ke? Haha. Hep Aidan ni, jangan malas-malas ok?!

Aidan is doing well. The development is normal as per 3 mths baby though he has yet to roll over. He can grab things, laughing and smilling, and making noise with his goo goo gaga. Very noisy I tell you. Banyak cakap anak aku ni. Nak jadi lawyer agaknya. Haha. He has doubled his birth weight which is sangatlah debab budak ni. He likes to watch Playhouse Disney also and sing along with Dibo. Mak dia yang sibuk nyanyi sebenarnya. Nak jadi penyanyi dulu tak lepas. Jadi penyanyi Aidan jela sudahnya. Hihi.

Tok Wan kata, "Ni Mat Senyum tak da gigi." hehe

I wonder why..

Sometimes I wish that I am an anonymous blogger who can write anything out of my mind without any restrictions or think whether my thoughts or words could hurt some people. But sometimes I do hope comments from the readers too and some other times, I wish that my thoughts could reach the right people whom I would like to dedicate indirectly.

On the other notes, now I really wish that I could have an Iphone cause I am falling in love with Instag.ram application. So, Aidan will have lots of nice and good photos then. Almost everyone that I know directly or indirectly use it and seriously I love love love sangat their photos.

At the same time, I wish I have lots of money, so that I can buy a nice, cozy condo in KD. Or perhaps, an extra money to go jalan-jalan overseas. I miss to have a long-hour flight. Afterall, I havent had any vacation since married/pregnant.

Some people said money couldnt buy happiness. But I think without money also people couldnt find happiness. The fact is money should be used wisely in order to have the happiness. Just that manusia tak pernah puas.

Same goes with love. When there are too much loves around us, we just take it for granted. But when it suddenly leaves us, barulah nak terkial-kial menyesal or whatever. Time ni, menangis air mata darah pun tak guna.

Sometimes I just wonder, why it is so hard to just be grateful for whatever that we have in our life?

T_T

Grandma and Atuk datang melawat sempena raya deepavali. Orang yang paling excited, of koslah mama Aidan. Haha. Makin hari makin lemak ok. Bangun dah lambat sikit, balik kerja makanan dah siap hidang, baju bukan saja dah siap jemur, siap lipat sekali ok. Heaven sungguh hidup. Haha.

Sekarang, mama Aidan dah mula kagum dengan ibu-ibu yang bekerja dan ada anak yang ramai tapi tetap maintain jaga rumah bersih-bersih dan teratur saja hidup anak-beranak. Memang tabik spring. Sebabnya sekarang, rasa nak pengsan bila dah sampai rumah. Jejak saja kaki kat rumah, mulalah nak kena buat itu ini. Nak duduk hadap TV layan Chinta, mimpi ok. Huh. Baru 2 minggu dah mula complaint? Sekeh kepala nak??

Nak dijadikan cerita, hari Isnin lepas, Aidan kembung perut. Hati gusar kat ofis tak yah
cerita. Closing period pon dah tak kira. Pukul 5.45ptg terus cabut. Babysitter mengadu Aidan
nangis tak henti2. Kesian my baby. Sorry Aidan. Sumpah mama tak sentuh lagi bubur kacang hijau ok. T_T

Then balik rumah, aktiviti mengurut perut Aidan dan melayan Aidan sepenuh hati diutamakan.
Perut mama Aidan memang dah tahap super lapar, tapi tak sanggup nak biar Aidan main sorang2 dalam keadaan tak berapa nak sihat. Pijoi macam biasa, balik lambat. Suruh Pijoi tapau food, dia malas nak singgah pulak. Nasib baik Aidan mahu tidur awal. Mungkin penat melalak dan tahan sakit di siang hari. Kasihan baby. Sobss. Jadinya, lepas Aidan tidur, barulah saya boleh mula operasi.

Hajat hati nak masak kari ayam. Tapi Pijoi nak ayam goreng. So ayam goreng it was. Sambil kemas dapur, sambil masak dengan tidak sabar. Perut dah melalak gila ni. Lepas siap kemas dapur, dengan hati berbunga nak makan ayam goreng dengan kicap, sekali tengok isi ayam tak masak. Gua apalagi beb, melalak superlah. Memang tak leh blah. Perut lapar, penat segala, bila nak makan, ayam tak masak pulak. Mana tak meraung. Haha.

Tapi itulah insiden yang nak kata sedih tak jugak, bongok tak jugak, kelakar pon tak. Undefined. Tapi memang sampai bila-bila akan ingatlah. Baru tahu, susah jugak jadi working mummy rupanya. And it is not fun anymore. T_T Esoknya terus nak makan KFC. Pijoi cakap boleh saya belajar goreng ayam. Heh. Not funny!

Nanti bila saya dah ada anak 4, tapi dapat maintain rumah bersih dan teratur segalanya, silalah tabik spring kat saya ok. Jangan lupa. Haha.

Kekasih Gelap

"Lynnette is my friend and you're not, Tom!" Gaby DHW season 5

Yesterday, while having dinner.

Hubby: What will you do if you see your friend's husband/bf cheating on her?

(note: We were talking about the obvious cheating like the friend's husband/bf sedang berpelukan, berpegangan tangan, etc with other girl)

Me: Of course lah I will let my friend know. Jangan harap nak terlepas.

Hubby: Even though you know that it will ruin their relationship?

Me: Hello. He's already ruin it apa. Daripada kawan saya terus-terusan kena tipu, WTH. Baik saya bagitahu.

Hubby: What if dua-dua kawan awak macam Fiza and Bili. That cheating guy and your girlfriend? (read: both are my good friends. But Fiza is my laling)

(note: sorry Fiz and Bils. Contoh je k. Hehe)

Me: Of courselah saya bagitahu Fiza. Tapi saya akan terus confront Bili dulu. No way Bili boleh tipu Fiza.

Hubby: Tapi kalau Fiza yang curang, awak bagitahu Bili tak?

Me: Tak. Haha. Tapi saya akan confront Fiza lah dan advise dia kembali ke jalan yang benar. Takkanlah nak bergosip berdua ngn Bili. Semacam je rasa. Haha.

Personally, I will always against orang ketiga dan kecurangan though my view on kekasih gelap was not that narrow macam dulu. And no matter how hard I try to like them, I just cant. Cause I dont really understand why they cant really respect the others. Afterall, I dont have to like all people in the world cause there are plenty that dont like me too. Karma people! Haha.

Moga-moga orang disekelilingku dan diriku dijauhkan daripada mereka dan cobaan ini. Amin.